Yesterday, I went to Singapore General Hospital to visit my grandfather who was admitted last Thursday. Mum only told me about it when I came back from Berkelah on Sunday. Guess she didn't want to spoil my holiday mood when she called me on Thursday. He was so frail and weak. Don't even have much strength to talk even. Grandma was right beside him, attending to his needs. The moment I saw the image of two old people taking care of one another, something struck my heartstrings.
My childhood memories with Grandpa was that I remembered sitting on his lap and trying to control the steering wheel of his taxi. I remembered sitting in his favorite corner, together with my cousins and watching him smoke opium. I actually liked the smell of opium.
Grandpa likes to keep stuff and repairs them. He's really good at mechanical work and I always think that the stuff he keeps will be able to bring in a lot of money in the future because they are all antiques.
Now it really pains me to see him so frail. Went to a friend's 21st birthday party and met up with old school friends. It was great seeing them again and laughing happily together. Finally I got to see my best friend. Recently, her grandfather just passed away and she was telling how upset she was, and I knew I would be just as depressed.
22.12.05
9.12.05
It's a good day (for sleeping)
Sigh. Woke up at 8am.
Having dance practice later at 9am. I'm feeling so sleepy, shouldn't have stayed on watching the movie.
It's the first week of holidays, and I've spent a lot of money already. Everyday was fun. Though we did nothing much. My body is aching from both trainings and practices.
Sigh. I have yet started on my website! DARN! Think I am going to get an "INCOMPLETE" grade.
I just want to play and play and play and play.
Yesterday I had IVP training. Actually I don't like IVP trainings at all. Luckily, still have my hall mates. The reason mainly is because I don't like seeing SP and ML. Somehow I can never run away from them. And I also don't like them being so close to the coach, as if trainings are chit-chatting sessions. Yesterday I was quiet during training so RS asked whether I'm ok or not. Back in hall, after buying my dinner back from behind, I bumped into him again. He tried to analyse why I felt that way and then concluded that I need a new boyfriend. I guess so. But sigh. Nobody likes me. Hehe. He jokingly said that he will be my part-time boyfriend for free. That's nice of him. He's really a good catch. HAHA.
I remembered today is SP's birthday and I 'm not going for his chalet because I really have dance practice. And tomorrow's RS birthday.
Sigh. What a nice weather to sleep in!
Having dance practice later at 9am. I'm feeling so sleepy, shouldn't have stayed on watching the movie.
It's the first week of holidays, and I've spent a lot of money already. Everyday was fun. Though we did nothing much. My body is aching from both trainings and practices.
Sigh. I have yet started on my website! DARN! Think I am going to get an "INCOMPLETE" grade.
I just want to play and play and play and play.
Yesterday I had IVP training. Actually I don't like IVP trainings at all. Luckily, still have my hall mates. The reason mainly is because I don't like seeing SP and ML. Somehow I can never run away from them. And I also don't like them being so close to the coach, as if trainings are chit-chatting sessions. Yesterday I was quiet during training so RS asked whether I'm ok or not. Back in hall, after buying my dinner back from behind, I bumped into him again. He tried to analyse why I felt that way and then concluded that I need a new boyfriend. I guess so. But sigh. Nobody likes me. Hehe. He jokingly said that he will be my part-time boyfriend for free. That's nice of him. He's really a good catch. HAHA.
I remembered today is SP's birthday and I 'm not going for his chalet because I really have dance practice. And tomorrow's RS birthday.
Sigh. What a nice weather to sleep in!
2.12.05
theethreewing
Finally exams are over for me! This has got to be the most difficult-to-endure exam period. To think that I'm the last one to finish on my wing!
Luckily, my neighbours are damn fun! I enjoyed every moment spent with them.
E3 04/05 and E3 05/06 are two extreme groups of people.
I like them both.
I like being taken care of in E3 04/05. I like being the youngest. I like to be doted on by seniors. I like to listen to great stories of hall life. I like having cats around. I like playing MJ. I like composing songs with Grace.
I like suggesting crazy ideas in E3 05/06. I like laughing damn hard and damn loud. I like calling people names. I like THE TABLE. I like eating meals with 7-8 people. I like running with my neighbours. I like being called "Mary/ Ma Li/ Good fren".
Life's really funny. When I think I'm not going to survive well, the next moment, I'm so attached to the place.
Luckily, my neighbours are damn fun! I enjoyed every moment spent with them.
E3 04/05 and E3 05/06 are two extreme groups of people.
I like them both.
I like being taken care of in E3 04/05. I like being the youngest. I like to be doted on by seniors. I like to listen to great stories of hall life. I like having cats around. I like playing MJ. I like composing songs with Grace.
I like suggesting crazy ideas in E3 05/06. I like laughing damn hard and damn loud. I like calling people names. I like THE TABLE. I like eating meals with 7-8 people. I like running with my neighbours. I like being called "Mary/ Ma Li/ Good fren".
Life's really funny. When I think I'm not going to survive well, the next moment, I'm so attached to the place.
7.11.05
Why me?
Last Thursday, I woke up early in the morning and went downstairs to collect my laundry. While transferring my laundry to the basket, I heard something dropping. At first, I thought a button dropped, but all I can see was only eggshell. At that moment, it still didn't occur to me that the shells were from my laundry. Then I saw yellow gooey stuff on my white adidas shorts! I was damn pissed off! The incident totally ruined the rest of my beautiful day. Immediately, I went back to my room and wrote a note and pasted on the laundry room door.
It said, "TO WHOEVER WHO DROPPED AN EGG IN THE 2ND WASHING MACHINE ON 3RD NOV: Thank you. It's either I have offended you or I'm just plain unlucky. Anyway, if you don't like me, TELL ME STRAIGHT. DON'T BE SNEAKY. If you are just bored, find something else to do. I don't like scrambled EGG with FAB water."
Later in the day, according to reliable sources, there were other "egg" incidents the night before. Somebody had eggs smashed into his room, and another got eggs in his shoes. Apparently, some freaking drunkards were messing around. But why me? I think I always have an affinity with the most unluckiness things in the world. Somebody up there is always bullying me. Sigh! But somehow I can only resign to fate. What a miserable loser!
It said, "TO WHOEVER WHO DROPPED AN EGG IN THE 2ND WASHING MACHINE ON 3RD NOV: Thank you. It's either I have offended you or I'm just plain unlucky. Anyway, if you don't like me, TELL ME STRAIGHT. DON'T BE SNEAKY. If you are just bored, find something else to do. I don't like scrambled EGG with FAB water."
Later in the day, according to reliable sources, there were other "egg" incidents the night before. Somebody had eggs smashed into his room, and another got eggs in his shoes. Apparently, some freaking drunkards were messing around. But why me? I think I always have an affinity with the most unluckiness things in the world. Somebody up there is always bullying me. Sigh! But somehow I can only resign to fate. What a miserable loser!
3.11.05
Here comes November...
November is here.
Means exams are coming. Holidays are coming. New Year is here.
Mad rush to complete everything.
Too much readings. Too many lagging tutorials.
I'm trying very very hard to study for the exams. But there seems to be very little time. Not only that, I still have one more dance practice. The toughest thing of all, have to deal with my interpersonal relationships with other people.
I took a walk with Grace just now. She was very stressed up. Mental block for her assignment, didn't know what to write. She was depressed in NIE, too much work for her to do. I tried to cheer her up by telling her my own problems. The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer someone else. I'm not sure whether did I really made her feel better, but I did make myself feel better. Haha. Everyone has problems. Life is really full of ups and downs. How you look at it is really dependent on yourself. Nobody can force you to think otherwise. I can talk a lot of sense to other people, but when it comes to my own problems, I just couldn't talk myself through. I believe I'm a "half-glass-full" person. Always trying to look at the better side of things. However, somehow I went over to the extreme and became someone who doesn't care about anything much. Meaning, whenever I failed at something, I would tell myself that it's ok. This mindset slowly evolved to a "don't bother" attitude. In layman's term, I'm a slacker.
I think I'm a sensitive person. Good in a way that, as far as possible, I try to put myself in somebody's shoes. Bad in a way that, I assume too much.
I believe that everyone should be considerate for others when living or interacting together, be it in the classroom or canteen. It pisses me off very much when some people are just ignorant and inconsiderate. I hate people who are selfish, self-centred and self-service. Self-service as in, these are the people who help themselves to other people's things.
Don't really know what's the point of this entry.. I just had to vent out my frustrations.
Means exams are coming. Holidays are coming. New Year is here.
Mad rush to complete everything.
Too much readings. Too many lagging tutorials.
I'm trying very very hard to study for the exams. But there seems to be very little time. Not only that, I still have one more dance practice. The toughest thing of all, have to deal with my interpersonal relationships with other people.
I took a walk with Grace just now. She was very stressed up. Mental block for her assignment, didn't know what to write. She was depressed in NIE, too much work for her to do. I tried to cheer her up by telling her my own problems. The best way to cheer yourself up is to cheer someone else. I'm not sure whether did I really made her feel better, but I did make myself feel better. Haha. Everyone has problems. Life is really full of ups and downs. How you look at it is really dependent on yourself. Nobody can force you to think otherwise. I can talk a lot of sense to other people, but when it comes to my own problems, I just couldn't talk myself through. I believe I'm a "half-glass-full" person. Always trying to look at the better side of things. However, somehow I went over to the extreme and became someone who doesn't care about anything much. Meaning, whenever I failed at something, I would tell myself that it's ok. This mindset slowly evolved to a "don't bother" attitude. In layman's term, I'm a slacker.
I think I'm a sensitive person. Good in a way that, as far as possible, I try to put myself in somebody's shoes. Bad in a way that, I assume too much.
I believe that everyone should be considerate for others when living or interacting together, be it in the classroom or canteen. It pisses me off very much when some people are just ignorant and inconsiderate. I hate people who are selfish, self-centred and self-service. Self-service as in, these are the people who help themselves to other people's things.
Don't really know what's the point of this entry.. I just had to vent out my frustrations.
2.11.05
31.10.05
笑一笑
This is how China kids learn their English....
一位父亲正在检查儿子的英语课本，突然看到了极其恐怖的一页：
yes - 爷死
nice - 奶死
bus - 爸死
mouse - 妈死
girls - 哥死
was - 我死
niece - 你死
kiss - 气死
those - 都死
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蚂蚁和大象结婚了，可没几天大象就死了。蚂蚁非常伤心，一边哭一边骂道：“亲爱的，你怎么能比我早走？这辈子我不用干别的，但是埋你就够了。”
一位父亲正在检查儿子的英语课本，突然看到了极其恐怖的一页：
yes - 爷死
nice - 奶死
bus - 爸死
mouse - 妈死
girls - 哥死
was - 我死
niece - 你死
kiss - 气死
those - 都死
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蚂蚁和大象结婚了，可没几天大象就死了。蚂蚁非常伤心，一边哭一边骂道：“亲爱的，你怎么能比我早走？这辈子我不用干别的，但是埋你就够了。”
28.10.05
Creative SMSes
给你做个心理测试， 超准！“日”字加一笔，你第一感觉是什么字？
白：是最好的人
目：是最倔的人
由：是最善的人
电：是最笨的人
旧：是最毒的人
甲：是最狠的人
申：是最猾的人
旦：是最懒的人
田：是最想做爱的人
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对你的思念，，就像大便的颜色一样的深，想见你的心情，就像肚子痛要找厕所一样急，多么希望我们像大便一样黏，朋友情就像大便的味道一样浓。
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峨眉山上不见山，
只见有人在云端，
竹林之下有座庙，
偶尔有人来相伴，
天下之大何处寻，
肯定不是在车上，
好的女友哪里找？
《猜七个字》
白：是最好的人
目：是最倔的人
由：是最善的人
电：是最笨的人
旧：是最毒的人
甲：是最狠的人
申：是最猾的人
旦：是最懒的人
田：是最想做爱的人
——————————————————————————————
对你的思念，，就像大便的颜色一样的深，想见你的心情，就像肚子痛要找厕所一样急，多么希望我们像大便一样黏，朋友情就像大便的味道一样浓。
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峨眉山上不见山，
只见有人在云端，
竹林之下有座庙，
偶尔有人来相伴，
天下之大何处寻，
肯定不是在车上，
好的女友哪里找？
《猜七个字》
27.10.05
Samurai spirit
Duty and Loyalty: You serve your purpose and do
what you must do. People would consider you
someone to rely on, and one who keeps his/her
word when he/she gives it.
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26.10.05
25.10.05
Make me pure
Some will sing a song
To reel 'em in
It's a song I sung before
And a song I'm gonna sing again
I mean every word
I don't mean a single one of them
Oh Lord, please make me pure
- but not yet
Tell a joke
Tell it twice
If no one else is laughing there why am I
I split my sides both times and laugh until I cry
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet
Smoking kills
Sex sells
I've got one hand in my pocket but the other one looks cool as hell
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet
I stopped praying
So I hope this song will do
I wrote it all for you
I'm not perfect but you don't mind that, do you?
I know you're there to pull me through, aren't you?
So I look for love
I like the search
And I'll be standing for election all across the known universe
Let every president get the country she deserves
Oh Lord, make me pure
- but not yet
And I've been seeing
Somebody's wife
She said she'd leave him for me and I said that wasn't wise
You can't lie to a liar because of all lies
Oh Lord, please make me pure
- not yet
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The first time I heard this song is on MTV. It's damn nice. I'm not a Christian and I loved this melody. The lyrics is quite funny, don't you think? The singer is singing as though "Lord" is his good buddy and he's trying to make a pact with him. At the same time, he's doing all the "sinful" things. I can't really express the meaning of the song but I think I know what's the song is about.
10 things I hate about you
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
If only..
If only people can be more sensitive to MY needs..
If only people can be more considerate...
If only people can give me some breathing space...
If only people can be more understanding and not screwed up my life...
My world will be a better place.
Was it just me or what?
Why is it that I don't feel like I'm living my own life with ME being the main character, instead, I'm more like the supporting cast in other people's life?
Give me a break!
If only people can be more considerate...
If only people can give me some breathing space...
If only people can be more understanding and not screwed up my life...
My world will be a better place.
Was it just me or what?
Why is it that I don't feel like I'm living my own life with ME being the main character, instead, I'm more like the supporting cast in other people's life?
Give me a break!
20.10.05
What's going on?
In a twinkle of time, Friday is here again!
However, I can't recall anything meaningful that I have accomplished this week.
Wasting my time doing insignificant stuff.
If feeling lousy is not enough, how about breaking my favourite racket to add to my misery? Sigh. i just bought the racket for about two months, and it just left me just like that. Devastated. And if that's not enough, I just restringed the racket last weekend. The string is brand new and I'm quite sure it's less than 100 hits.
What's going on with me?
For the past few days, I've been self-reflecting what kind of a person I am. I realised that I'm someone who thinks very highly of myself. I always think that I'm the kindest person in the world, most observant, most sensitive and most considerate. So disgusted with myself. I have to learn how to be modest and I should not whine when I'm the one offering help to others. I should really stop whining so much, thinking I'm the most miserable person on earth whenever I feel that others always took me for granted. Sigh. I guess, I'm not making much sense over here.
My purpose of living right now is to fulfil my role as a student. I need to catch up with all the readings and making sure that I don't fall asleep during lectures. I need to complete all my tutorials and assignments and projects and lab reports. I need to really focus on my studies.
However, I can't recall anything meaningful that I have accomplished this week.
Wasting my time doing insignificant stuff.
If feeling lousy is not enough, how about breaking my favourite racket to add to my misery? Sigh. i just bought the racket for about two months, and it just left me just like that. Devastated. And if that's not enough, I just restringed the racket last weekend. The string is brand new and I'm quite sure it's less than 100 hits.
What's going on with me?
For the past few days, I've been self-reflecting what kind of a person I am. I realised that I'm someone who thinks very highly of myself. I always think that I'm the kindest person in the world, most observant, most sensitive and most considerate. So disgusted with myself. I have to learn how to be modest and I should not whine when I'm the one offering help to others. I should really stop whining so much, thinking I'm the most miserable person on earth whenever I feel that others always took me for granted. Sigh. I guess, I'm not making much sense over here.
My purpose of living right now is to fulfil my role as a student. I need to catch up with all the readings and making sure that I don't fall asleep during lectures. I need to complete all my tutorials and assignments and projects and lab reports. I need to really focus on my studies.
19.10.05
drained out
Drained out totally. Can't crap anymore for my project. My eyes are tired, my brain is on a strike. Time is running out. I have so much to complete.
Can someone tell me what's the trade for extra time in this world?
S I G H!
Can someone tell me what's the trade for extra time in this world?
S I G H!
Bloody Mary
Out of point.
Once again, another failed attempt for donating blood. Sigh. I felt so defeated, though I really don't have much control over it (except eating more iron supplements?)
This morning when my neighbours told me that anti-malaria drugtakers can't donate blood for 3 years, I had a foreboding feeling. Yes, a bit exaggerating, but somehow I knew I can't pass the interrogation before the actual donation.
Well, I'm not exactly bent on donating blood, but I think blood donation is seriously a good way in which I can help the less fortunate without any financial cost. Maybe, I'm not fated to donate blood. Haha. Ridiculous!
Another event to add into my list of purposeless living: I can't donate blood.
Am I showing suicidal signs?
Hahahahhahahahahhahahahaha. I'm seriously ok.
Once again, another failed attempt for donating blood. Sigh. I felt so defeated, though I really don't have much control over it (except eating more iron supplements?)
This morning when my neighbours told me that anti-malaria drugtakers can't donate blood for 3 years, I had a foreboding feeling. Yes, a bit exaggerating, but somehow I knew I can't pass the interrogation before the actual donation.
Well, I'm not exactly bent on donating blood, but I think blood donation is seriously a good way in which I can help the less fortunate without any financial cost. Maybe, I'm not fated to donate blood. Haha. Ridiculous!
Another event to add into my list of purposeless living: I can't donate blood.
Am I showing suicidal signs?
Hahahahhahahahahhahahahaha. I'm seriously ok.
At this hour of time...
It's very weird that I am still so wide awake at this hour of time. I think I've screwed up my bio-clock. Anyway I've just imported my blog entries to my multiply site. For what? I have no idea also. Just being bored.
Exams are coming real soon and there are so many deadlines to meet, readings to catch up. Never-ever-ending stuff to do. Stressed up with all my committments. Trainings, School, Dance practices, Families and Friends. Somehow I have no time for other things. Tuition, coaching took up my weekends, though I'm already not doing much compared to others. I really wonder where has all my time gone to?
These few days, I've been wondering what kind of a person I am. A good one or a rotten one. Seems to have problems interacting with others. It seems like I'm facing a "life crisis" right now. Suddenly, everything is unclear to me. What's the purpose of me being in this part of the world?
Think I've been too simplistic about life. Being happy is not wrong, however it is "insufficient" to help you deal with more complexing worldly issues.
Hah. I am tired.
Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep.
Fran Lebowitz (1950 - )
Exams are coming real soon and there are so many deadlines to meet, readings to catch up. Never-ever-ending stuff to do. Stressed up with all my committments. Trainings, School, Dance practices, Families and Friends. Somehow I have no time for other things. Tuition, coaching took up my weekends, though I'm already not doing much compared to others. I really wonder where has all my time gone to?
These few days, I've been wondering what kind of a person I am. A good one or a rotten one. Seems to have problems interacting with others. It seems like I'm facing a "life crisis" right now. Suddenly, everything is unclear to me. What's the purpose of me being in this part of the world?
Think I've been too simplistic about life. Being happy is not wrong, however it is "insufficient" to help you deal with more complexing worldly issues.
Hah. I am tired.
Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep.
Fran Lebowitz (1950 - )
Kotex roadshow
Well, I don't really wish to say much about a sanitary pad roadshow. It's more like I have no idea for the title of this post. Anyway, personally I think it's damn ridiculous to organise a sanitary pad roadshow. However, I must say it is no doubt a good marketing technique to promote the products, attracting the targeted audience with gift vouchers and discount coupons. Not only did it attracted the intended customers, curious onlookers would also stop by to check out what's going on. What a way to celebrate the monthly bleeding! Hah!
Just remembered that I'm going to donate blood tomorrow. This is my fourth attempt to donate blood. Previously, all my attempts have failed either because the blood donation drives always come right after I finished my menses or the last one was because I was on a restricted medication.
Dance practices have started this week. So far, I've been to two dances. I think I really have a hard time doing all the moves and I think I looked weird doing them. However the experienced dancers all told me that everything will be fine with more practices during the December holidays. I really hope that this awkward period will quickly fly by.
Just remembered that I'm going to donate blood tomorrow. This is my fourth attempt to donate blood. Previously, all my attempts have failed either because the blood donation drives always come right after I finished my menses or the last one was because I was on a restricted medication.
Dance practices have started this week. So far, I've been to two dances. I think I really have a hard time doing all the moves and I think I looked weird doing them. However the experienced dancers all told me that everything will be fine with more practices during the December holidays. I really hope that this awkward period will quickly fly by.
30.9.05
Staring At The Sun
Daylight on my shadow
Makes me feel alive
You kept me standing in your shadow
And it's a cold cold place to hide
I'm running away from this messed up place
I'm breaking free yeah yeah
I'm tired of staring at the sun
Can't stand the way you put my eyes so I can't see
Stealing every breath I breathe
You push me into overdrive
And I don't need this kind of light coz now I'm done
You took everything while I was staring at the sun
I know you won't leave me
But just turn and walk away
I'm tired when you kick me around
Trying to kill my dreams and break me down
But I won't hang around
28.9.05
weird
| You Are 80% Weird |
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Mixed feelings
Ever since I saw my eyecandy on fourth week of school, I've been bumping into him at least once a week! Haha! Today, I saw him.
These few days, I've been having a lot of mixed feelings.
Haha I don't now how to express myself but I've been thinking a lot about the guys around me (yeah, sounds damn desperate right?)
Before that, the only guy I thought about was only my eyecandy. Haha He's like my "virtual" friend, someone who doesn't exist in reality. Then RS came along. I got to know him better through badminton. I heard about him before from Suyi. He's really the one who can become the "perfect boyfriend". He's not bad-looking, he's got the money and he's damn faithful. I would like to know him better. The other guy who frequent my mind these few days is ZY. Before he broke up with his gf, I treated him as my "brother". But right now, I'm not too sure of the feeling. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive.
Enough of guys. More solemn stuff.
Last Saturday, I went to visit my grandparents. I was shocked when my mother told me that my grandfather may pass away anytime. These few days, I have been constantly checking my phone in case my mother calls me. It's pretty scary to wait for that dreadful phone call. Other than praying, I really do not know what else should I do. Though I wasn't so close to my paternal grandfather, I do remember the childhood memories with him. I used to watch him smoke opium. Sat on his lap as he controlled my hands on the steering wheel of his black taxi. My grandfather is someone who likes to repair old clocks and fans and he has collected a lot of antiques that seems useless to many of us. Looking back, the only regret I had was to miss his 76th birthday dinner at the start of this year. I was the only absentee that day.
I really do not know how I should handle the situation when the time comes.
These few days, I've been having a lot of mixed feelings.
Haha I don't now how to express myself but I've been thinking a lot about the guys around me (yeah, sounds damn desperate right?)
Before that, the only guy I thought about was only my eyecandy. Haha He's like my "virtual" friend, someone who doesn't exist in reality. Then RS came along. I got to know him better through badminton. I heard about him before from Suyi. He's really the one who can become the "perfect boyfriend". He's not bad-looking, he's got the money and he's damn faithful. I would like to know him better. The other guy who frequent my mind these few days is ZY. Before he broke up with his gf, I treated him as my "brother". But right now, I'm not too sure of the feeling. Or maybe I'm just too sensitive.
Enough of guys. More solemn stuff.
Last Saturday, I went to visit my grandparents. I was shocked when my mother told me that my grandfather may pass away anytime. These few days, I have been constantly checking my phone in case my mother calls me. It's pretty scary to wait for that dreadful phone call. Other than praying, I really do not know what else should I do. Though I wasn't so close to my paternal grandfather, I do remember the childhood memories with him. I used to watch him smoke opium. Sat on his lap as he controlled my hands on the steering wheel of his black taxi. My grandfather is someone who likes to repair old clocks and fans and he has collected a lot of antiques that seems useless to many of us. Looking back, the only regret I had was to miss his 76th birthday dinner at the start of this year. I was the only absentee that day.
I really do not know how I should handle the situation when the time comes.
23.9.05
Undecided
In a wink of time, school starts tomorrow.
And yet, I've barely rested.
Monday - mugging in the library. Preparing for my Physics term test.
Tuesday - Went Sentosa with Cheryl, Michelle and Zhiye. It was damn fun and the weather was amazingly great!
Wednesday - A bit of studying. Went to take photos for Urban Planning group tutorial. Wasted the rest of the day.
Thursday - A bit of studying. Went for training. Physically drained out and aching muscles.
Right now, I'm very tanned or rather very dark. Haha! And I like it very much. But how I wish I could go for a tan more often to get a more even skin color. Tomorrow night, my whole wing is going for the hall bash. One good thing to look forward to.
Recently, I keep wondering who reads my blog. What if someone knows me reads my blog? I'm not afraid of saying the wrong things because I only write my feelings and opinions of things. May not be reasonable sometimes, but it's just how I think.
I've concluded that there are rapists, perverts and molesters out there lurking in Friendster. Yesterday, I uploaded the photos we took on Tuesday at Sentosa. I set the photo in which me and Michelle were posing in our bikinis as the primary photo. This afternoon, I came back from the library and checked my mail. One stranger sent me a Friendster message and another requested me to add him as friend. Hahahahaha! I'm so amused that I couldn't believe it. The other amazing thing is when I logged in to my main page and saw that my profile was viewed 20+ times within a day. It's really a lot considering that usually nobody visits my page. I suddenly realised the magic of a "good" photo. Now I had to set another innocent looking photo as the primary photo in order to avoid unnecessary people. Hahaha.
And yet, I've barely rested.
Monday - mugging in the library. Preparing for my Physics term test.
Tuesday - Went Sentosa with Cheryl, Michelle and Zhiye. It was damn fun and the weather was amazingly great!
Wednesday - A bit of studying. Went to take photos for Urban Planning group tutorial. Wasted the rest of the day.
Thursday - A bit of studying. Went for training. Physically drained out and aching muscles.
Right now, I'm very tanned or rather very dark. Haha! And I like it very much. But how I wish I could go for a tan more often to get a more even skin color. Tomorrow night, my whole wing is going for the hall bash. One good thing to look forward to.
Recently, I keep wondering who reads my blog. What if someone knows me reads my blog? I'm not afraid of saying the wrong things because I only write my feelings and opinions of things. May not be reasonable sometimes, but it's just how I think.
I've concluded that there are rapists, perverts and molesters out there lurking in Friendster. Yesterday, I uploaded the photos we took on Tuesday at Sentosa. I set the photo in which me and Michelle were posing in our bikinis as the primary photo. This afternoon, I came back from the library and checked my mail. One stranger sent me a Friendster message and another requested me to add him as friend. Hahahahaha! I'm so amused that I couldn't believe it. The other amazing thing is when I logged in to my main page and saw that my profile was viewed 20+ times within a day. It's really a lot considering that usually nobody visits my page. I suddenly realised the magic of a "good" photo. Now I had to set another innocent looking photo as the primary photo in order to avoid unnecessary people. Hahaha.
15.9.05
Not-so-Creative
I realised that I'm a very boring writer. My entries are all the events that actually happened(Duh!). But sometimes as I read other people's journal, blogs, whatever, most of them have funny and critical entries about how they look at things. Somehow I'm not able to produce that kind of entries. Heh.
Anyway, I had my first DP tech class two nights ago. It was fun but I'm very depressed that I couldn't catch up with the music and it seems to me that everyone else is doing better than me. I'm really amazed but how the experienced dancers can move so fluidly and smooth. One day, I really hope I can dance like that as well. I should stop having low self-esteem and just go there and have fun, but I think it's the unfamilarity with the place and people that suppressed me. Haha.
Anyway, I had my first DP tech class two nights ago. It was fun but I'm very depressed that I couldn't catch up with the music and it seems to me that everyone else is doing better than me. I'm really amazed but how the experienced dancers can move so fluidly and smooth. One day, I really hope I can dance like that as well. I should stop having low self-esteem and just go there and have fun, but I think it's the unfamilarity with the place and people that suppressed me. Haha.
4.9.05
Reflections
Didn't really do much this weekend, but then again, weekends are always slack. Cancelled tuition yesterday morning for VI Symposium where the year fours present their virtual islands. It did gave me a bit of an idea of what I should put in my own virtual island. The symposium ended at 12pm. It started raining on my way back hall. Went for lunch with my neighbours who just came back from IBG handball. After that, we came back and showered and I played mahjong with Nana, Rach and Eli. Lost freaking 7 bucks! Haha! But I had a ball of time. We went to Toa Payoh for dinner and also to watch Huifen play Asian Champs. It was against the Maldives. Our players were giant standing beside the Maldives. It was a thrashing game. Just when we were about to leave, we spotted a REAL tall Sri Lankan who was freaking 2.08m tall!!! Oh my god! I jokingly told Cindy that she's about 2.5 times taller than Cindy. The whole group of us went to Icekimo to eat desserts. Again, Rohting's not there. But Cindy called her and she rushed down from don't know where. Heh! Great to come back to the familiar place once again. Great to see her again. Haha.
Rach drove the few of us back hall. Chatted with Grace for a long while. At first, I merely wanted to show her that I've brought back the Cambodian fan for memory sake. Then I proudly showed her my completed expedition journal. I was really proud of my journal because I really managed to used up all the pages and I did consistently my daily doings in the trip. So we started reading my journal. It was really interesting to go through my journal again. My style of writing was such that I would record down every little things that happened on the day itself and then added in my own thoughts. I'm glad that my journal wasn't boring at all, at least to me. Haha. I did mention about Grace on several occasions. I passed my journal around during the trip for others to leave me a note. Can tell that everyone thinks that I learnt a lot of things more than them because I always played with the kids. Everyone also mentioned about my nonsensical laughters at the weirdest times. But I'm really enjoying all the moments spent there. I didn't expect to join expedition once again. But I'm really glad that I will be going back again. Hah. Really cannot tell at this point of time whether everything will go well or not because the comm is made up of mainly year ones and twos. Not yet tried and tested unlike the previous batch of members who were manily year twos and above.
Just finished cleaning up my room. Suppose to shower now and then go home. Sigh, really didn't do much this weekend. Initially, I wanted to "mug" or learn some web designing. Looks like I've got to work extra hard in the weekdays.
Rach drove the few of us back hall. Chatted with Grace for a long while. At first, I merely wanted to show her that I've brought back the Cambodian fan for memory sake. Then I proudly showed her my completed expedition journal. I was really proud of my journal because I really managed to used up all the pages and I did consistently my daily doings in the trip. So we started reading my journal. It was really interesting to go through my journal again. My style of writing was such that I would record down every little things that happened on the day itself and then added in my own thoughts. I'm glad that my journal wasn't boring at all, at least to me. Haha. I did mention about Grace on several occasions. I passed my journal around during the trip for others to leave me a note. Can tell that everyone thinks that I learnt a lot of things more than them because I always played with the kids. Everyone also mentioned about my nonsensical laughters at the weirdest times. But I'm really enjoying all the moments spent there. I didn't expect to join expedition once again. But I'm really glad that I will be going back again. Hah. Really cannot tell at this point of time whether everything will go well or not because the comm is made up of mainly year ones and twos. Not yet tried and tested unlike the previous batch of members who were manily year twos and above.
Just finished cleaning up my room. Suppose to shower now and then go home. Sigh, really didn't do much this weekend. Initially, I wanted to "mug" or learn some web designing. Looks like I've got to work extra hard in the weekdays.
2.9.05
Ponder ponder ponder
After the long break, I finally saw him again in the fourth week of school. Before that, I've received so many sms from "concerned" friends that they had bumped into him at "science, arts, YIH". I wanted to see him very much but I really didn't expect to see him that day or rather I had given up hopes of bumping into him. Haha! But I was really glad to see him again. My heart was beating so fast that for a moment I can feel all the blood rushing into my brain. I really don't know why am I so infatuated with him. I realised that there are actually a lot of eligible guy friends in my own social circle, so why am I desperately clinging on to someone whom I don't think I have the chance to even know him.
13.8.05
do things really happen without a reason?
Unexplained. Perplexing.
Sometimes I really don't understand the way things turn out.
Two of my good friends became very much closer after a trip. I just found out they have became a couple. The problem is both of them are girls.
Why oh why? I'm quite disturbed by it.
Both of them had been involved in normal boy-girl relationships before. One of them just broke up with her boyfriend less a year.
How did I find out? I did notice that they became much closer during the trip, but purely as friends. Until when we were working together on National Day, their actions made me suspicious. The lovey dovey look in their eyes. The secret smiles they had when their eyes met each others'. The lying on each others' shoulders whenever they had the chance to. The intimate close up photo nicely framed on her desktop.
Someone went to ask one of them and confirmed the fact.
So? That someone kept telling me that some things just happen without a reason. Somehow I'm really very reluctant to accept this explanation. I couldn't imagine myself becoming like them one day. It's not that I don't accept lebanism but I just can't justify their actions and thoughts at all. Both of them came from mixed schools and I really don't think they were hurt so deeply by their previous relationships that made them detest guys. Even if I'm desperate for guys(yes, I admit it) and get rejected by all the stupid guys, I don't think I will turn to like girls at all.
Unexplained number two.
I know a couple who have been together for 8 years. Months ago I still asked the guy when will he marry her. He told me seriously "3 years later when I have money". They broke up two weeks ago.
I was very shocked when I heard the news from the guy. He's like a brother to me. It was the girl that suggested the breakup. Reason was she felt that things were just not the same as before. All the while I thought they were happy and lucky couple. I know the guy really loved her and very much wanted to make her his wife.
Why oh why? I don't understand why. How can one believe in love when things just happen without a reason?
Sometimes I really don't understand the way things turn out.
Two of my good friends became very much closer after a trip. I just found out they have became a couple. The problem is both of them are girls.
Why oh why? I'm quite disturbed by it.
Both of them had been involved in normal boy-girl relationships before. One of them just broke up with her boyfriend less a year.
How did I find out? I did notice that they became much closer during the trip, but purely as friends. Until when we were working together on National Day, their actions made me suspicious. The lovey dovey look in their eyes. The secret smiles they had when their eyes met each others'. The lying on each others' shoulders whenever they had the chance to. The intimate close up photo nicely framed on her desktop.
Someone went to ask one of them and confirmed the fact.
So? That someone kept telling me that some things just happen without a reason. Somehow I'm really very reluctant to accept this explanation. I couldn't imagine myself becoming like them one day. It's not that I don't accept lebanism but I just can't justify their actions and thoughts at all. Both of them came from mixed schools and I really don't think they were hurt so deeply by their previous relationships that made them detest guys. Even if I'm desperate for guys(yes, I admit it) and get rejected by all the stupid guys, I don't think I will turn to like girls at all.
Unexplained number two.
I know a couple who have been together for 8 years. Months ago I still asked the guy when will he marry her. He told me seriously "3 years later when I have money". They broke up two weeks ago.
I was very shocked when I heard the news from the guy. He's like a brother to me. It was the girl that suggested the breakup. Reason was she felt that things were just not the same as before. All the while I thought they were happy and lucky couple. I know the guy really loved her and very much wanted to make her his wife.
Why oh why? I don't understand why. How can one believe in love when things just happen without a reason?
3.8.05
A New Beginning
It's been a real long time since I last updated.
Right now I'm suffering from a inflammed throat and a bit of flu. Practically lost my voice yesterday while begging for money.
It was Flag Day yesterday. Again, I was the area I/C of Pasir Ris, "homeground advantage". After asking money for about two hours, I lost my voice and had to ask for "reinforcement". At that point of time, I was really low morale, sick, sleepy and irritated. I wanted to tell the in charge that I wanted to leave and stop flagging. But I didn't. Instead I sneaked back home to take a short nap and a quick shower. After recharging, I carried on flagging with my patheic voice until 7pm. This was the first time I did not give my best for flag.
This semester is going to be a tough one for me. I will be taking six modules and I'm contemplating whether I should go for the Perth AUG at the end of November. I must be real disciplined this semester. No more nonsense for me. Less hall stuff for me. Blah. Nothing else to say.
Right now I'm suffering from a inflammed throat and a bit of flu. Practically lost my voice yesterday while begging for money.
It was Flag Day yesterday. Again, I was the area I/C of Pasir Ris, "homeground advantage". After asking money for about two hours, I lost my voice and had to ask for "reinforcement". At that point of time, I was really low morale, sick, sleepy and irritated. I wanted to tell the in charge that I wanted to leave and stop flagging. But I didn't. Instead I sneaked back home to take a short nap and a quick shower. After recharging, I carried on flagging with my patheic voice until 7pm. This was the first time I did not give my best for flag.
This semester is going to be a tough one for me. I will be taking six modules and I'm contemplating whether I should go for the Perth AUG at the end of November. I must be real disciplined this semester. No more nonsense for me. Less hall stuff for me. Blah. Nothing else to say.
23.6.05
Ramblings
It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Sometimes I'm just too lazy to update. But I managed to start writing a diary also. So I sort of recorded a lot of the little encounters, thoughts and reflections I've been through.
Right now, I'm working at Speedmark. After I returned from Cambodia, I stayed at home for a week as a "house-daughter". Helped my mum do her data entry, did a bit of house work and tried to tuition my sis. As I was planning to start looking for a job the following week, my kind neighbour happened to ask my mum if any one of us (me and my bro) wants to work part-time doing filing for a week. So I took up the job. What I do is soooooooo boring that I could doze off halfway. Everyday I had to arm-wrestle with the hole puncher. But well, for the money. Luckily it's only for a week and now is already Thursday, just hang on a bit more. Anyway, I felt pretty out of place at the office. The office is rather big, this is the first time I saw the exact replica of what I've seen on TV. Everyone has their own cubicle, computer and phone. Everyone had their own space. But after the first two days, I told myself I won't want to work in an office like that. There's no motivation for me to work hard. Everything is so routine. Politics is everywhere. Gossip is all over. And with your own cubicle, there isn't much social interaction. I don't know. Maybe that is why I feel that way, it's because I don't know much about working in an office.
Somehow, this holiday has been a bustling one. Though I did not have a long-term part time job, I had a handful of activities in my schedule. Yesterday I went back AHS to play badminton with my seniors. I loved playing badminton leisurely. I had a great time playing and laughing. All the while I was laughing heartily until my jaws ached. I'm looking forward to the next session. I'm gong back hall this Saturday for room bidding then I have a BBQ session in the evening. Sunday I have tuition and coaching then meet up with my expedition leaders to do accounts. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I have to attend a first aid course with Zhiye. It's part of the NCAP criteria. Hopefully, I got into the theory class in August then I can be qualified coach. Rohting asked me to help out in her sis' ice cream cafe. Yeah! See? Another job coming in my way. I have so much things to do. And all these while I'm really enjoying what I've been doing.
This afternoon I had lunch with my ex-collegues from BIrkart. It was great seeing everyone again and knowing that everything else had not changed much since I last left except for their hairstyles. I must say that I have an affinity with Changi Cargo complex. Hah. Never thought I would go back there to work again when I left last year.
On my way back home, on the bus ride, I think I saw my eyecandy'd friend. My heart stopped a beat, hoping to see my eyecandy. Too bad, he wasn't there. All these while, I'm thinking about him. But I don't know what is really so good about him that I'm addicted to when I don't even know him at all. Probably, he's just a puppet on my mind and I'm just making use of this puppet to create more fairytale-like fantasies out of it. So sick of myself being so naive and desperate. Always longing to bump into him. But seriously, what are the chances that he also like me? Someone is still visiting my friendster page everyday. Who?! WHO??! Sigh, I guess I can never find out...
Right now, I'm working at Speedmark. After I returned from Cambodia, I stayed at home for a week as a "house-daughter". Helped my mum do her data entry, did a bit of house work and tried to tuition my sis. As I was planning to start looking for a job the following week, my kind neighbour happened to ask my mum if any one of us (me and my bro) wants to work part-time doing filing for a week. So I took up the job. What I do is soooooooo boring that I could doze off halfway. Everyday I had to arm-wrestle with the hole puncher. But well, for the money. Luckily it's only for a week and now is already Thursday, just hang on a bit more. Anyway, I felt pretty out of place at the office. The office is rather big, this is the first time I saw the exact replica of what I've seen on TV. Everyone has their own cubicle, computer and phone. Everyone had their own space. But after the first two days, I told myself I won't want to work in an office like that. There's no motivation for me to work hard. Everything is so routine. Politics is everywhere. Gossip is all over. And with your own cubicle, there isn't much social interaction. I don't know. Maybe that is why I feel that way, it's because I don't know much about working in an office.
Somehow, this holiday has been a bustling one. Though I did not have a long-term part time job, I had a handful of activities in my schedule. Yesterday I went back AHS to play badminton with my seniors. I loved playing badminton leisurely. I had a great time playing and laughing. All the while I was laughing heartily until my jaws ached. I'm looking forward to the next session. I'm gong back hall this Saturday for room bidding then I have a BBQ session in the evening. Sunday I have tuition and coaching then meet up with my expedition leaders to do accounts. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I have to attend a first aid course with Zhiye. It's part of the NCAP criteria. Hopefully, I got into the theory class in August then I can be qualified coach. Rohting asked me to help out in her sis' ice cream cafe. Yeah! See? Another job coming in my way. I have so much things to do. And all these while I'm really enjoying what I've been doing.
This afternoon I had lunch with my ex-collegues from BIrkart. It was great seeing everyone again and knowing that everything else had not changed much since I last left except for their hairstyles. I must say that I have an affinity with Changi Cargo complex. Hah. Never thought I would go back there to work again when I left last year.
On my way back home, on the bus ride, I think I saw my eyecandy'd friend. My heart stopped a beat, hoping to see my eyecandy. Too bad, he wasn't there. All these while, I'm thinking about him. But I don't know what is really so good about him that I'm addicted to when I don't even know him at all. Probably, he's just a puppet on my mind and I'm just making use of this puppet to create more fairytale-like fantasies out of it. So sick of myself being so naive and desperate. Always longing to bump into him. But seriously, what are the chances that he also like me? Someone is still visiting my friendster page everyday. Who?! WHO??! Sigh, I guess I can never find out...
8.6.05
I'm Back
Finally, I'm back after two weeks. Really enjoyed the trip very much. In fact, I was reluctant to leave the village. Those two weeks were the most carefree life I've ever led. No handphones. No Internet. No buildings. Kids. Friendly villages. Foreign langauge. Animals. Simple life. Everyday I wake up at 5am in the morning and the village was already bustling with activities. Their 8am seems like 11am in Singapore. They had nothing over there but they were all happy people. Everything is an eye-opener to me. Some kids are ten years old but they look like 5 five years old to me, this is because they are malnourished. Most of the wear the same set of clothes for three or more days and they only have three or four sets of clothes in their closet. They get dirtied easily because of the dusty environment. They do not have proper sanitation and clean water. But all of them have no complains.
We must have looked like clowns to them and their source of amusement during our stay there. As spoilt city-brats, we have built a toilet there for our use. The toilet was small and it's manual flush system, meaning we need to bail water to flush our waste. No throwing of toilet paper into the shithole because it will clog the pipe. So we had to throw toilet paper into a plastic bag. We taught the kids how to play frisbee. They were amazed by our spectacles. I tried to teach them English. In return, they taught me Khmer. I loved the scenery. Plains. Sunrise. Sunset. Starry nights.
I played with the kids everyday. I dared said I'm the one who interacted most with the kids. I loved their innocence. Their sincerity. Their curiosity. Their playfulness. They are easily contented with simple things. Each new trick they learnt from us, they are eager to show other kids and they are very patient to learn. They play with simple things like straws and rubber bands. We showed them chaptay, frisbee and captain's ball. Everyday, I get to laugh heartily with the kids.
After leaving the village, I was very upset. Cried for the longest time. When I finally stopped for lunch, my tears came back after lunch. I wasn't enjoying myself in Siem Reap. I miss them badly. It's amazing how close and attached we have become. Everything complicates after I stepped out of the village. Hope I can go back again to see the kids. I don't want to make any promise now because I'm really unsure of what I can do or will do. This entry is rather incoherent. Anyway, I will be a young adult tomorrow. Woohoo~
We must have looked like clowns to them and their source of amusement during our stay there. As spoilt city-brats, we have built a toilet there for our use. The toilet was small and it's manual flush system, meaning we need to bail water to flush our waste. No throwing of toilet paper into the shithole because it will clog the pipe. So we had to throw toilet paper into a plastic bag. We taught the kids how to play frisbee. They were amazed by our spectacles. I tried to teach them English. In return, they taught me Khmer. I loved the scenery. Plains. Sunrise. Sunset. Starry nights.
I played with the kids everyday. I dared said I'm the one who interacted most with the kids. I loved their innocence. Their sincerity. Their curiosity. Their playfulness. They are easily contented with simple things. Each new trick they learnt from us, they are eager to show other kids and they are very patient to learn. They play with simple things like straws and rubber bands. We showed them chaptay, frisbee and captain's ball. Everyday, I get to laugh heartily with the kids.
After leaving the village, I was very upset. Cried for the longest time. When I finally stopped for lunch, my tears came back after lunch. I wasn't enjoying myself in Siem Reap. I miss them badly. It's amazing how close and attached we have become. Everything complicates after I stepped out of the village. Hope I can go back again to see the kids. I don't want to make any promise now because I'm really unsure of what I can do or will do. This entry is rather incoherent. Anyway, I will be a young adult tomorrow. Woohoo~
20.5.05
Back at home..
Yesterday, with Cheryl's dad driving me back, I evacuated from home finally. Now's home sweet home. But tomorrow, I'm leaving for Cambodia. Somehow, I wasn't really that excited. In fact, I'm a bit worried, but I guess, everything will be ok after the first two days. Went a lot of places today. First, met up with Cheryl, Nana and B1 at Beach Road to buy Nana's backpack (which is exactly the same as mine, but she got a better bargain), B1's slippers and other small stuff. For this trip, I really bought a lot of stuff. Haha. Hopefully, I can go travelling more often, then what I've bought will be more worthwhile. Then we proceeded to Peninsular Plaza to buy B1's backpack. After that, we went to Bugis to meet JY to go Sim Lim to buy her mp3 player. With Nana's electronic knowledge and B1's bargaining skills, she managed to buy a 1GB Iriver for $260 which was really worth the money. Actually, while we were walking from shops to shops, I was tempted to buy a mp3 player too. But in the end, I concluded that I wanted to buy because everyone else has one, and not really because I need one. Yes, bus journeys can be boring and tiring, but I can always sleep. Haha.
When we went home, me and JY went Kino to browse at books where I found a "Coxford Singlish Dictionary". I thought it was very bad to publish such books because it encourages people to use Singlish even more often, if not, more "fluent". From the first few pages, I've already "learnt" a lot of new Singlish terms. It really waste the government's efforts of promoting "Speak Good English" campaign.
I met up with my good old friends, Huiwen, Suyi and Zhongrui, for dinner. We went to Cafe Cartel to eat. For don't know what reason, the service today was very bad. We had to wait for quite some time before our next order comes. Even though so, I had a great time chatting with them. It's really the company that makes the difference. I'm glad to keep in close contact with them after so many years. Unknowingly, I've known them for 8 years. They are really my best buddies, I can always easily talk to anyone of them about anything under the sun. None of us has changed much, except maybe physical appearance. I'm just glad to see them before I leave for Cambodia. Gosh, I really don't know when will my next post be. Till next time......
When we went home, me and JY went Kino to browse at books where I found a "Coxford Singlish Dictionary". I thought it was very bad to publish such books because it encourages people to use Singlish even more often, if not, more "fluent". From the first few pages, I've already "learnt" a lot of new Singlish terms. It really waste the government's efforts of promoting "Speak Good English" campaign.
I met up with my good old friends, Huiwen, Suyi and Zhongrui, for dinner. We went to Cafe Cartel to eat. For don't know what reason, the service today was very bad. We had to wait for quite some time before our next order comes. Even though so, I had a great time chatting with them. It's really the company that makes the difference. I'm glad to keep in close contact with them after so many years. Unknowingly, I've known them for 8 years. They are really my best buddies, I can always easily talk to anyone of them about anything under the sun. None of us has changed much, except maybe physical appearance. I'm just glad to see them before I leave for Cambodia. Gosh, I really don't know when will my next post be. Till next time......
18.5.05
The long goodbye...
Finally done! I'm really glad to finish the three powerpoint presentations. I'm really happy that they like what I've done. I really put in a lot of effort and time. I don't know what to say now... All I have left is to look forward to my Cambodia trip and prepare myself for the new chapter of my life. Maybe I need to explain myself a bit. Well, I did the powerpoint presentations not because they are holiday assignments but they are for my neighbours, Saudi, Rohting and Grace. Cindy did the other two powerpoint presentations for B1 and Nana. My presentations were all a bit funny, enough to tickle the crowd and I'm proud of that. As for Cindy's presentations, I felt the one for Nana was especially sad because of the song. It's really like a IHG video. A total different style from mine. Heh. But I really that one a lot, it makes me cry. For the past few days, I've been working hard on these ppt, till 3am in the morning. It's not easy at all, there's a lot of minute details and timing is very very important. Cindy and me have been planning for a "farewell party" for the graduating seniors for a while. Until yesterday, we still can't decide whether to have dinner back in hall or eat outside hall. We had poor planning and our stories don't really match. Haha. I think, the seniors did smell something fishy going on, but still I think it's a pleasant surprise for them. Just now, all the sad emotions came back, but I have to learn to move on without them. I think it's a nice way to sort of "say goodbye". Don't know why I'm here alone in my room updating while the rest are laughing heartily two rooms away from me. Haha.
Anyway, I went co-op this afternoon and I happened to see my eyecandy's friend. Haha. For a moment, I was very excited but in the end, I did not manage to see him. Wonder would his friend tell him that he saw me.. These few days, I kept wondering how fated are we. The story of "Turn left turn right'' kept haunting me (in a good way, I think). I wonder if this same thing happens to both of us - we are always near each other, but we don't get to meet each other. I guess fate is a funny thing....
Anyway, I went co-op this afternoon and I happened to see my eyecandy's friend. Haha. For a moment, I was very excited but in the end, I did not manage to see him. Wonder would his friend tell him that he saw me.. These few days, I kept wondering how fated are we. The story of "Turn left turn right'' kept haunting me (in a good way, I think). I wonder if this same thing happens to both of us - we are always near each other, but we don't get to meet each other. I guess fate is a funny thing....
13.5.05
Friday the thirteen
Actually nothing much happened today, just didn't know what to put for the title. Just another expedition day. We started with Margie sharing her life journey, then some of us volunteered to prepare food for sampling. We tried to cook Laksa, Mee Rebus and Mee Siam. Out of the three, I think Mee Rebus is the nicest and also it's the easiest to cook. We took pretty long to prepare every thing even though everything were instant. But due to the lack of utensils, we had to wait and reuse the same pot for different dishes. Luckily, all the dishes were successful except for the frying of Mee Siam bee hoon. Anyway, I'm updating as long as Rohting has not reached here. Waiting for her to help me pack some stuff back. Actually it's a lot of stuff. Moving out of hall soon. Sigh. All my neighbours are leaving. I will definitely miss them and miss hall life in the holidays. How I wish there weren't holidays. I seriously don't mind studying throughout the year. Haha. Anyway, after lunch, we went back to Blue Oyster and learnt the history of Cambodia from Rachel's powerpoint presentation and watched "The Killing Fields". This movie depicted the living conditions in Cambodia during the Khmer Rouge Regime. There were a few bloody and raw scenes. The movie showed the strong friendship built between an American and a Cambodian journalist. Both of them wanted to let the rest of the world knows what's going on within the Cambodia. Alright, my chauffeur is here. Haha. I shall end here.
12.5.05
.:.Rainbow.:.
"Red Yellow and Pink and Green
Purple and Orange and Blue
I can sing a Rainbow
Sing a Rainbow
Sing a Rainbow too"
This is the commercial song that keeps playing in my head.
Anyway, I forgot to mention in the previous post that I noticed that he cut his hair. Actually, he really wasn't that fantastic-looking but somehow he blows my mind. Haha. I was just talking to PY that all my actions were very obvious that I'm interested in him but since he hasn't taken any action, I doubt he feels the same for me just like the way I do. On the other hand, the reason why he hasn't taken any action probably is because he wasn't smart enough to look for me on Friendster. Haha. He wasn't as psychotic as I am. But I'm really really glad to have "felt his presence". Haha.
After lunch, we went back hall for T-shirt painting. There wasn't enough brushes so in the end, I used my fingers to paint instead. It was done in 40 minutes and after that, Grace said, "That's all for today." Yeah! So me, C, Mich, JY and JT went back YIH to see doctor to get our hormones pills. I've learnt a great deal about the drug that I'm supposed to be taking from C. She told me what's the difference between hormones pills and contraceptives.
We went back hall to change out, then we took 33 to Queensway Shopping Centre as JY wanted to get a backpack. We walked for quite a while. Mich also wanted to look for a pouch. JY and C found a good deal at this particular shop. A 60 L backpack for $60, which was really a good catch hence in the end, JT and I, ended up buying also. Now that I have a backpack on my own, next time I do not have to borrow for someone else. Yeah!
Purple and Orange and Blue
I can sing a Rainbow
Sing a Rainbow
Sing a Rainbow too"
This is the commercial song that keeps playing in my head.
Anyway, I forgot to mention in the previous post that I noticed that he cut his hair. Actually, he really wasn't that fantastic-looking but somehow he blows my mind. Haha. I was just talking to PY that all my actions were very obvious that I'm interested in him but since he hasn't taken any action, I doubt he feels the same for me just like the way I do. On the other hand, the reason why he hasn't taken any action probably is because he wasn't smart enough to look for me on Friendster. Haha. He wasn't as psychotic as I am. But I'm really really glad to have "felt his presence". Haha.
After lunch, we went back hall for T-shirt painting. There wasn't enough brushes so in the end, I used my fingers to paint instead. It was done in 40 minutes and after that, Grace said, "That's all for today." Yeah! So me, C, Mich, JY and JT went back YIH to see doctor to get our hormones pills. I've learnt a great deal about the drug that I'm supposed to be taking from C. She told me what's the difference between hormones pills and contraceptives.
We went back hall to change out, then we took 33 to Queensway Shopping Centre as JY wanted to get a backpack. We walked for quite a while. Mich also wanted to look for a pouch. JY and C found a good deal at this particular shop. A 60 L backpack for $60, which was really a good catch hence in the end, JT and I, ended up buying also. Now that I have a backpack on my own, next time I do not have to borrow for someone else. Yeah!
I.Saw.Him
The next few entries would be describing mostly things we did during all the expedition sessions. Today was supposed to be an un-happening day. The day started when we had a short briefing at 10am, and a sharing session after that. During the sharing session, both Wingkit and Jesal presented their "Life Journey". It was very entertaining listening to their stories. Then we ended at 12pm for an early lunch. I went back to my room and packed a little, but I was planning to pack lunch at Ginza until I received a call from Jiayun saying that "Your eyecandy is at YIH. Come quickly." Without thinking, I said, "Ok, ok." Then I quickly rushed to the bustop. While waiting, I began to think whether I should go or not, because it would damn obvious if he sees me. Just when I was about to message JY again, the bus came, so I got up the bus. I really didn't want to go there, or rather I was quite scared. I called JY to check where is she sitting and is he still there. While talking, I saw him, but I'm a bit upset because he was with another girl. I was at a loss. But anyway, I sort of took one big round and walked passed his group unintentionally, but I didn't look at him. I only took a few glimpse of him and I was satisfied. I told JY that he was with a girl, but she said they were sitting diagonally when sitting, so they should be just friends. Without it's true or not, I'm really contented that I saw him. Haha.
Beach fun
Today I went to Sentosa with Cheryl, Michelle and Cindy. At first, I thought there would be a few more friends going, but they couldn't make it. We went to Palawan Beach instead of the usual Sunset Bay because it's FOC at Palawan Beach. When we reached there, there weren't many people at all. So we just played volleyball by ourselves. It was very tiring playing two-on-two, but good fun. However, we got bored fast. The weather was very good. The sun wasn't that strong. I got tanned but didn't manage to get rid of my old tan lines with my new bikini. Hah. After a while, there was a group of Russian tourists passing by. Two of them joined us for volleyball. It was much more exciting because there were more rallies and it's much easier playing three-on-three. One of them even taught Cindy how to serve properly. The whole time at Sentosa, I was hoping I could bump into my eyecandy. Haha. Cindy was shouting his name out when we were at the "Southernmost of the Continental Asia". We became sick of volleyball so we went 7-11 to buy slurpee and frisbee, besides, somebody else came over and used our court. Throughout the whole day, we played and rested, played and rested, played and rested. Then me and Cindy to go into the water while Mich and Cheryl laid down and sun-tanned themselves on the beach. I was trying to throw skipping pebbles and I did. My best record was 3 skips and Cindy was impressed by me. Haha. So proud of myself. Forgot to mention that when we boarded the Sentosa bus this morning, we thought that the four of us were wearing the wrong dress code, because we saw girls wearing pretty dresses and dangling earrings to Sentosa while we were in shorts and singlets.
When it was around 4pm, we decided to go to Siloso Beach to watch "Animal Encounter". To get there, we either have to get up a tram or a bus. We walked for quite a distance before reaching a bustop. Upon reaching, we passed by a playground and decided to play with the merry-go-round. It wasn't the usual merry-go-round and, just nice there were only four seats. It was very fun, we all got dizzy after a few spins. Haha. Then we had to run after the tram. When we finally reached the place, the compere talked for about 10mins and the show ended. Haha. We stayed at the platform for a while, then Huiwen came to look for me. We discussed a bit about dinner plans, then she had to play pool with her colleague. Duh. So Cindy and I played frisbee again while Mich and Cheryl stayed at the platform. Later they came over and joined us then we had a "Frisbee Throwing Competition". Haha. And Cheryl was damn lousy at it and she refuses to admit it. Hee. Finally, we left Sentosa and went Harbourfront to eat Mac's ice cream. It's very refreshing.Wooo!
My initial dinner plans with Huiwen is that we would meet back in the East side as I wanted to bring home a bag of clothes. From the way I dilly-dally, by the time I reached the east side would be already 8pm and probably we could only meet up for a drink instead. So Huiwen suggested that we meet up another day, this is also because she wanted to catch some TV. In the end, I didn't go home. I stayed in hall, packed dinner from behind and went to Cheryl's room and watched TV with Mich and Cindy and Margie. This was the first time I watched so much TV in hall. We watched from 7pm to 12.30am. Haha. It was entertaining watching TV with them. My eyes are now very tired and tomorrow's going to be a long day too..
When it was around 4pm, we decided to go to Siloso Beach to watch "Animal Encounter". To get there, we either have to get up a tram or a bus. We walked for quite a distance before reaching a bustop. Upon reaching, we passed by a playground and decided to play with the merry-go-round. It wasn't the usual merry-go-round and, just nice there were only four seats. It was very fun, we all got dizzy after a few spins. Haha. Then we had to run after the tram. When we finally reached the place, the compere talked for about 10mins and the show ended. Haha. We stayed at the platform for a while, then Huiwen came to look for me. We discussed a bit about dinner plans, then she had to play pool with her colleague. Duh. So Cindy and I played frisbee again while Mich and Cheryl stayed at the platform. Later they came over and joined us then we had a "Frisbee Throwing Competition". Haha. And Cheryl was damn lousy at it and she refuses to admit it. Hee. Finally, we left Sentosa and went Harbourfront to eat Mac's ice cream. It's very refreshing.Wooo!
My initial dinner plans with Huiwen is that we would meet back in the East side as I wanted to bring home a bag of clothes. From the way I dilly-dally, by the time I reached the east side would be already 8pm and probably we could only meet up for a drink instead. So Huiwen suggested that we meet up another day, this is also because she wanted to catch some TV. In the end, I didn't go home. I stayed in hall, packed dinner from behind and went to Cheryl's room and watched TV with Mich and Cindy and Margie. This was the first time I watched so much TV in hall. We watched from 7pm to 12.30am. Haha. It was entertaining watching TV with them. My eyes are now very tired and tomorrow's going to be a long day too..
10.5.05
The BIG Crush
Just this afternoon as I was surfing, I read a very touching love story that made me teared. The sad part of the story was that the guy did not manage to let the girl know that he really loved her before she passed away. Lesson learnt: You should let someone know how you feel for him/her when you can. I really understand this, but the point is it's really very hard to tell someone how you feel in real life. Maybe it's that as hard if you already know the person, for example, your boyfriend or your mother. But it's not the case for a crush.
It all started last semester when I started to study for exams in the library. Most of the time I studied alone. I remembered the first time I noticed him because of his shirt. It says "180 degrees". I interpreted that as "I'm a straight guy." Haha. Don't really know if that's what it was supposed to be. Subsequently, I started to look out for him in the library everyday. Slowly, I had to see him everyday. I think he did not notice me at all, I'm just a normal nerd in the library, nothing attractive. Coincidentally, he happens to be two of my lecture-mates' eyecandy also. From them, I learnt that he was one year our senior and yes, he was in Engineering too. They said they noticed him while studying in the library also in year one and they frequently saw him in the Engineering canteen during lunch time. Darn, I don't like to eat lunch in the Engineering canteen and I did not purposely eat at Engineering canteen for the sake of bumping into him. When I finished my last paper last semester, me and Jiayun purposely went back to library to try to look for our individual crush. Haha, so silly, but he was not there.
At the start of this semester, I very much wanted to see him again. I can clearly remember all the encounters I had with him. There was once when I wanted to go co-op to buy textbook and I saw him walking down the slope on the other side of the road. He didn't see me. Another incident was during a break of a boring seminar, I walked out of the lecture theatre and saw him with his group of friends. I didn't think he recognised me. Then once when I was waiting for bus at the Arts canteen stop with Rohting, I saw two familiar figures jogging past me, for a moment, I thought these people must be from KR training for IHG, then suddenly it came to me that they were actually his clique, so I quickly turned around and then he was running towards me. I bet I was staring at him the whole time! The thing is he saw me! I'm definite with that. He looked at me! After that encounter I was on cloud nine. Haha. Seriously, I've never been so infatuated with a guy before. The other encounter was at a bazaar, he saw me when I was trying to show my friends my eyecandy. Haha. The last one was when I was at co-op with Jiayun, I was at the stationery section while JY was choosing paper, then I naturally looked up when someone walked by and there he was! At that moment, I flustered and didn't know what to do, so I quickly picked something up and looked.
The last three encounters were really unforgettable, so I decided to search for him on Friendster. I didn't know his name. The only clues I have were his age(I guessed he was around 23) and school(NUS). There were 700+ results and so I slowly looked through every one of them. As I was halfway through and about to give up, tadah~, I FOUND HIM! Can you imagined how happy I was?? After that, I became fanatic and bookmarked him and logged on everyday just to see him. From Friendster, I knew how many siblings he got, what he likes, how he is like as a person from his testimonials. I became a stalker. Sigh, I didn't like what I was doing but i couldn't control it.
There was a period of time when I very much wanted to see him in person, as in bump into him, but the more I wanted to see him, the harder I get to see him. On the other hand, all of other friends managed to spot him on other parts of the campus. I thought to myself, "Not fated". Hence I could only wait for reading week to start and hope to see him again in the library. For the first few days I went to the same level 3 to study but he wasn't there. I guessed that he must be studying somewhere else. So, one day after dinner when I went back to library with Peiyi, I told her, "Let's go to level 6", and I never regret my decision. I saw him there but he didn't see me. From then onwards, me and PY will go to level 6 religiously to study. Haha. Besides, I've found out that level 6 is where all the babes and hunks would congregate. It was fun studying there because there's a lot to bitch about and this is the first time in NUS, I study with PY. Anyway, it was towards the later part of studying that me and my eyecandy were studying in the same section. In the end, he and his friends always sit one row behind and two tables away from me. *Sidetracked, I noticed that he never uses the lift.* At first, he did not walk past my side but subsequently, he did. I was really happy and I thought I caught him looking at me also. When exams started, I observed him so much that I knew when he had his papers. When he had finished 4 papers, there was one afternoon that I thought he was going for his fifth paper. So I got a bit upset that I could not see him anymore and I didn't expect him to come back. Who knows after lunch he came back and walked past my side and he totally caught me unprepared and I bet I looked damn stunned when I saw him. And I really was stunned, so stunned that I thought my heart skipped a beat. The very last close encounter was on 2 May. As usual, me and PY were studying in the library. Then it was lunch time but I knew that he and his friends had already gone for lunch but they were not back. I was expecting to bump into him on our way to Macdonald's. Who knows when we were left another short flight of steps, I saw him walking from the side. It was difficult to act nonchalant but after that, I was very contented.
I know all the while, it was very obvious that I kept looking at him but it didn't matter. I really wanted to know him as a friend and at that time, PY kept encouraging to take the first step. But I'm really am afraid to take initiative. There are too many uncertainties, besides the fact that I'm a conservative thinking person, even if I don't appear so. If I have the chance, there would be a lot of questions that I wanted to ask. I wanted to know if he felt something for me, because there are times that I thought I got some hints from him. If he felt something for me, why aren't him taking action? During this long holiday, I hope I can bump into him again, somewhere, somehow. If not, I guess I would have to wait until the next reading week then I can see him again. Another thing I would like to find out is that I noticed that somebody has been checking my Friendster profile everyday and I wondered whoever he/she is. Maybe, a secret admirer? Hehe.
It all started last semester when I started to study for exams in the library. Most of the time I studied alone. I remembered the first time I noticed him because of his shirt. It says "180 degrees". I interpreted that as "I'm a straight guy." Haha. Don't really know if that's what it was supposed to be. Subsequently, I started to look out for him in the library everyday. Slowly, I had to see him everyday. I think he did not notice me at all, I'm just a normal nerd in the library, nothing attractive. Coincidentally, he happens to be two of my lecture-mates' eyecandy also. From them, I learnt that he was one year our senior and yes, he was in Engineering too. They said they noticed him while studying in the library also in year one and they frequently saw him in the Engineering canteen during lunch time. Darn, I don't like to eat lunch in the Engineering canteen and I did not purposely eat at Engineering canteen for the sake of bumping into him. When I finished my last paper last semester, me and Jiayun purposely went back to library to try to look for our individual crush. Haha, so silly, but he was not there.
At the start of this semester, I very much wanted to see him again. I can clearly remember all the encounters I had with him. There was once when I wanted to go co-op to buy textbook and I saw him walking down the slope on the other side of the road. He didn't see me. Another incident was during a break of a boring seminar, I walked out of the lecture theatre and saw him with his group of friends. I didn't think he recognised me. Then once when I was waiting for bus at the Arts canteen stop with Rohting, I saw two familiar figures jogging past me, for a moment, I thought these people must be from KR training for IHG, then suddenly it came to me that they were actually his clique, so I quickly turned around and then he was running towards me. I bet I was staring at him the whole time! The thing is he saw me! I'm definite with that. He looked at me! After that encounter I was on cloud nine. Haha. Seriously, I've never been so infatuated with a guy before. The other encounter was at a bazaar, he saw me when I was trying to show my friends my eyecandy. Haha. The last one was when I was at co-op with Jiayun, I was at the stationery section while JY was choosing paper, then I naturally looked up when someone walked by and there he was! At that moment, I flustered and didn't know what to do, so I quickly picked something up and looked.
The last three encounters were really unforgettable, so I decided to search for him on Friendster. I didn't know his name. The only clues I have were his age(I guessed he was around 23) and school(NUS). There were 700+ results and so I slowly looked through every one of them. As I was halfway through and about to give up, tadah~, I FOUND HIM! Can you imagined how happy I was?? After that, I became fanatic and bookmarked him and logged on everyday just to see him. From Friendster, I knew how many siblings he got, what he likes, how he is like as a person from his testimonials. I became a stalker. Sigh, I didn't like what I was doing but i couldn't control it.
There was a period of time when I very much wanted to see him in person, as in bump into him, but the more I wanted to see him, the harder I get to see him. On the other hand, all of other friends managed to spot him on other parts of the campus. I thought to myself, "Not fated". Hence I could only wait for reading week to start and hope to see him again in the library. For the first few days I went to the same level 3 to study but he wasn't there. I guessed that he must be studying somewhere else. So, one day after dinner when I went back to library with Peiyi, I told her, "Let's go to level 6", and I never regret my decision. I saw him there but he didn't see me. From then onwards, me and PY will go to level 6 religiously to study. Haha. Besides, I've found out that level 6 is where all the babes and hunks would congregate. It was fun studying there because there's a lot to bitch about and this is the first time in NUS, I study with PY. Anyway, it was towards the later part of studying that me and my eyecandy were studying in the same section. In the end, he and his friends always sit one row behind and two tables away from me. *Sidetracked, I noticed that he never uses the lift.* At first, he did not walk past my side but subsequently, he did. I was really happy and I thought I caught him looking at me also. When exams started, I observed him so much that I knew when he had his papers. When he had finished 4 papers, there was one afternoon that I thought he was going for his fifth paper. So I got a bit upset that I could not see him anymore and I didn't expect him to come back. Who knows after lunch he came back and walked past my side and he totally caught me unprepared and I bet I looked damn stunned when I saw him. And I really was stunned, so stunned that I thought my heart skipped a beat. The very last close encounter was on 2 May. As usual, me and PY were studying in the library. Then it was lunch time but I knew that he and his friends had already gone for lunch but they were not back. I was expecting to bump into him on our way to Macdonald's. Who knows when we were left another short flight of steps, I saw him walking from the side. It was difficult to act nonchalant but after that, I was very contented.
I know all the while, it was very obvious that I kept looking at him but it didn't matter. I really wanted to know him as a friend and at that time, PY kept encouraging to take the first step. But I'm really am afraid to take initiative. There are too many uncertainties, besides the fact that I'm a conservative thinking person, even if I don't appear so. If I have the chance, there would be a lot of questions that I wanted to ask. I wanted to know if he felt something for me, because there are times that I thought I got some hints from him. If he felt something for me, why aren't him taking action? During this long holiday, I hope I can bump into him again, somewhere, somehow. If not, I guess I would have to wait until the next reading week then I can see him again. Another thing I would like to find out is that I noticed that somebody has been checking my Friendster profile everyday and I wondered whoever he/she is. Maybe, a secret admirer? Hehe.
Happening night...
Continuing from my shopping trip and nap, I had an expedition meeting after that. It was a hilarious session. We were first divided into two groups, the Majoria and Minoria. I was in the Minoria group and we were supposed to be the native people and the Majoria people were supposed to help us build an University. We had to communicate in a language that the Majoria will not be able to understand, so Wingkit thought of the "No" language, we just say "No" for everything. The whole thing was very funny because we delibrately exaggerated all the weird gestures. To greet with us, the Majoria had to shake our left arms and then flicked our foreheads. To greet our chief, the guys have to rub their chests first then do a "dog-pee" action. It was very funny and all of us could not control ourselves(the Minoria were supposed to be offended and be angry) so we kept giggling and giggling. The objective behind this session was to re-enact a familiar situation that we may face when we were there at Cambodia. But most of us agreed that when we were there, all of us will have the basic courtesy of not laughing and just follow whatever gestures that need to be done. It was until then that I realised that we are leaving soon. It's the next Saturday. OMG! How fast!
After expedition session, I had dinner with my dear neighbours, Grace, B1 and Nana. We had instant noodles and we bbq sausages and cuttlefish balls left over from the steamboat. Haha. We used the instant grill that Grace had won in the lucky draw during the D&D night. Like what B1 had said, it was enjoyable bbq-ing because we can take our own sweet time to bbq the food. Halfway through I left for a mini volleyball session with Mich, Cheryl and Jiayun at the takraw court. It was good fun but we only played for an hour and then the lights went out. An hour later, me, Grace, Nana, Mich, Cheryl, Jiayun and Jingting, went for a KTV session. I was shouting for most of the songs, and I felt damn good. We ended at 2am and I went straight to bed after that. That's a lot of activities for a slack Monday. Haha.
After expedition session, I had dinner with my dear neighbours, Grace, B1 and Nana. We had instant noodles and we bbq sausages and cuttlefish balls left over from the steamboat. Haha. We used the instant grill that Grace had won in the lucky draw during the D&D night. Like what B1 had said, it was enjoyable bbq-ing because we can take our own sweet time to bbq the food. Halfway through I left for a mini volleyball session with Mich, Cheryl and Jiayun at the takraw court. It was good fun but we only played for an hour and then the lights went out. An hour later, me, Grace, Nana, Mich, Cheryl, Jiayun and Jingting, went for a KTV session. I was shouting for most of the songs, and I felt damn good. We ended at 2am and I went straight to bed after that. That's a lot of activities for a slack Monday. Haha.
9.5.05
Retail therapy
Actually I wonder why are there people reading other's blogs when usually people just write whatever happened to them each day.. Unless the person is a superhero or a celebrity, a commoner's life can be very mundane and boring.. Sure there will be times when things happen but still I wouldn't really read other people's blogs. I just surf to see their self-created blog skin and appreciate their hard work.
I just came back from shopping at Bugis. Bugis is really a shopping haven(to me) than Orchard. You can get cheap deals over there and there are sooooo many shops that it's impossible to go in every shop and see. However I did not buy any clothes. I've only bought at set of bikini yeah!!! Finally, I found the perfect bikini for myself. But it costs $91.80(plus padding)! I'm quite surprised that I actually splurge on it because usually I'm a very frugal person. I told myself that this is my 21st birthday present that I bought myself, hence I did not feel too bad about it. Haha. Very satisfied with it and I'm going to wear it on Wednesday, hopefully the weather will be as good as today! After buying my bikini, I wasn't interested to shop for other things hence I was walked around Bugis Junction. I was secretly hoping that I could bump into my crush, haha, which sadly did not happen. Shall continue more about my crush in the next entry, I need a nap now....
I just came back from shopping at Bugis. Bugis is really a shopping haven(to me) than Orchard. You can get cheap deals over there and there are sooooo many shops that it's impossible to go in every shop and see. However I did not buy any clothes. I've only bought at set of bikini yeah!!! Finally, I found the perfect bikini for myself. But it costs $91.80(plus padding)! I'm quite surprised that I actually splurge on it because usually I'm a very frugal person. I told myself that this is my 21st birthday present that I bought myself, hence I did not feel too bad about it. Haha. Very satisfied with it and I'm going to wear it on Wednesday, hopefully the weather will be as good as today! After buying my bikini, I wasn't interested to shop for other things hence I was walked around Bugis Junction. I was secretly hoping that I could bump into my crush, haha, which sadly did not happen. Shall continue more about my crush in the next entry, I need a nap now....
Alright.. I'm in
Finally decided to start a blog too after surfing so many blogs.. I'm really amazed by the different beautiful blogs that I've saw. Surprisingly, most of them were done by Secondary school kids. This just shows how out-dated I am. Another thing that I've realised was that one can easily(and I really mean easily) recognise a Singaporean's blog. So, I've decided to post all my entries in as perfect English as I can but at the same time, express my thoughts and feelings vividly. Actually, this might be hard to achieve as I've limited vocabulary and it would be too formal to talk in standard English.
Well, I guess I have to start with some introduction of myself.. I'm turning 21 soon(wah, how exciting!) but I'm not planning for any kind of celebration. Firstly, it would cost a lot of money, time and effort. Secondly, I would not know who to invite and who I should invite. Anyway, I will be leaving for THE EXPEDITION this coming 21st to Cambodia to build a classroom for the kids there. I'm pretty sure it would be one of the defining moments of my life. Very excited about this trip, however, at the same time, I'm worried about the first few days over there. I will be coming back 18 days later which will be 7th or 8th June and just in time to spend my birthday back home.
I hope this blog will be a good channel to express my thoughts and feelings about all the stuff I see everyday. I hope that I have the patience to update my blog as frequent as possible because as a true Geminian, I like changes very much and I might one day declare blog as useless. Time passes very slowly ever since I ended my exams on 3rd May. I only remembered that I slept for like 18 hours on the next day? Haha! I slept until I had a headache and puffy eyes. However I didn't slept much for the last two days.
Last Friday, our wing had a steamboat dinner together. It was supposed to be our last reunion dinner because all my neighbours(except shuiyen) was graduating which means that they are leaving. There wasn't any sad moments at all. I think it's because that Nana, Grace and B1 will be going for the expedition trip also and I will still be able to see them for the next one month. Saudi actually graduated last semester, however we still maintained good contact and I guess I will seeing Rohting often also. Hence there wasn't any "goodbyes" for the moment. Another reason I think it's because I've been sad for months already, therefore the pain is not as intense anymore. As I've said many times before, I'm really very grateful to know all these wonderful seniors who took good care of me for the past two years. They have been my pillars of support when I was down and my listeners when I was happy. I just love all of them! And I know departing is inevitable. It's part of life that everyone has to undergo. It was a sumptuous dinner and we all ate heartily. After dinner was mahjong time and I played till 3 plus in the morning.. The next day I had to wake up at 9am for tuition however my kid forgot about it totally! Hence tuition was pushed to Sunday morning. Spent the whole of Saturday afternoon doing a powerpoint slide as a 21st birthday gift for Qifang at Zhongrui's house. It wasn't easy at all with Murphy's law working on us, "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong". When we were finally done, it was already almost 8pm and we were supposed to be there at 630? In the end, we reached there at 9pm just in time to meet some old classmates and cake-cutting-cum-phototaking session. After that, I followed the Hall 6 people to Newsroom Bar for their bash. I sort of drank alcohol with an empty stomach, therefore two glasses of Vodka Lime sort of made me giddy and I danced very hard after that. It would have been more fun if my friends were there with me. All the while, I was dancing with my seniors and it wasn't as fun because I was not so close too them, but decent enough to keep me happy. The music was very good. A good mix of retro and hip-hop. I really respect Sab and Cui who always have guys picking them up but too bad, they were taken already! Hah! Anyway I don't really have good feeling about those guys who try to pick girls at these places. They seem too desperate. By 2am, I felt like my legs were going to die on me. However, I could not leave(and I did not want to leave) because the locker key is with one of my seniors. I didn't want to leave because I don't want to take cab by myself as it would be damn expensive. I was expecting that my seniors will be kind enough to send me home and she did! Hee. We left the place at 3 plus and I reached home at 4am. Had to wake up at 9am to give tuition remember? Yup, that's my sleep-less two nights. So tired now....
Woah.. Not bad as a first post.. Just hope that I will keep updating.. Tata~
Well, I guess I have to start with some introduction of myself.. I'm turning 21 soon(wah, how exciting!) but I'm not planning for any kind of celebration. Firstly, it would cost a lot of money, time and effort. Secondly, I would not know who to invite and who I should invite. Anyway, I will be leaving for THE EXPEDITION this coming 21st to Cambodia to build a classroom for the kids there. I'm pretty sure it would be one of the defining moments of my life. Very excited about this trip, however, at the same time, I'm worried about the first few days over there. I will be coming back 18 days later which will be 7th or 8th June and just in time to spend my birthday back home.
I hope this blog will be a good channel to express my thoughts and feelings about all the stuff I see everyday. I hope that I have the patience to update my blog as frequent as possible because as a true Geminian, I like changes very much and I might one day declare blog as useless. Time passes very slowly ever since I ended my exams on 3rd May. I only remembered that I slept for like 18 hours on the next day? Haha! I slept until I had a headache and puffy eyes. However I didn't slept much for the last two days.
Last Friday, our wing had a steamboat dinner together. It was supposed to be our last reunion dinner because all my neighbours(except shuiyen) was graduating which means that they are leaving. There wasn't any sad moments at all. I think it's because that Nana, Grace and B1 will be going for the expedition trip also and I will still be able to see them for the next one month. Saudi actually graduated last semester, however we still maintained good contact and I guess I will seeing Rohting often also. Hence there wasn't any "goodbyes" for the moment. Another reason I think it's because I've been sad for months already, therefore the pain is not as intense anymore. As I've said many times before, I'm really very grateful to know all these wonderful seniors who took good care of me for the past two years. They have been my pillars of support when I was down and my listeners when I was happy. I just love all of them! And I know departing is inevitable. It's part of life that everyone has to undergo. It was a sumptuous dinner and we all ate heartily. After dinner was mahjong time and I played till 3 plus in the morning.. The next day I had to wake up at 9am for tuition however my kid forgot about it totally! Hence tuition was pushed to Sunday morning. Spent the whole of Saturday afternoon doing a powerpoint slide as a 21st birthday gift for Qifang at Zhongrui's house. It wasn't easy at all with Murphy's law working on us, "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong". When we were finally done, it was already almost 8pm and we were supposed to be there at 630? In the end, we reached there at 9pm just in time to meet some old classmates and cake-cutting-cum-phototaking session. After that, I followed the Hall 6 people to Newsroom Bar for their bash. I sort of drank alcohol with an empty stomach, therefore two glasses of Vodka Lime sort of made me giddy and I danced very hard after that. It would have been more fun if my friends were there with me. All the while, I was dancing with my seniors and it wasn't as fun because I was not so close too them, but decent enough to keep me happy. The music was very good. A good mix of retro and hip-hop. I really respect Sab and Cui who always have guys picking them up but too bad, they were taken already! Hah! Anyway I don't really have good feeling about those guys who try to pick girls at these places. They seem too desperate. By 2am, I felt like my legs were going to die on me. However, I could not leave(and I did not want to leave) because the locker key is with one of my seniors. I didn't want to leave because I don't want to take cab by myself as it would be damn expensive. I was expecting that my seniors will be kind enough to send me home and she did! Hee. We left the place at 3 plus and I reached home at 4am. Had to wake up at 9am to give tuition remember? Yup, that's my sleep-less two nights. So tired now....
Woah.. Not bad as a first post.. Just hope that I will keep updating.. Tata~
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