Lonely makes me happy

Sometimes, I feel happier being alone. I think everyone needs some time being alone. But I know some people cannot stand being alone.

Right now, I'm in a period of loneliness and I'm loving it.
Don't feel like explaining to people. Don't feel like waiting for people. Don't feel like talking to people. Don't feel like being disturbed by others.
I just want to be alone.

I feel like I can go on without depending on others. But I think it's impossible to survive in this world alone. You need a friend. Sigh! I can't wait for holidays to come so that I can try to meet up with my secondary friends. Didn't really contact them after New Year's celebration. Hang out too much with hall friends.

Actually, I'm not sure how long will the friendships build during my stay in Eusoff last. I don't think most will last long. Because these kind of friendship is built up on convenience. Everything started because we live near one another. I think JT mentioned "proximity friendship" before. That's what I think too. Once the proximity is removed, I don't know what will happen, though I know everyone will try to make effort to contact one another. This is totally different from the friendships I've made in secondary school. They are strong and withstanding. I know I can still confide to them even if we haven't meet up for a long time.

Sigh! I haven't been studying since I came back, and I feel sleepy already. Hahaha! But I'm not panicking at all because I'm contented to have gone through my syllabus before. This is the attitude of a slacker. Haha! Totally not going for an extra mile to earn a better grade.