I met up with xw and her friend yesterday. A much anticipated meetup. I simply had no idea what the meeting was all about, and thought it would be an exchange of ideas of how we did our planning. But it turned out to be a recruitment session. I knew I lost xw totally and now I'm in a dilemma of whether I should defend my company or not. I think I should because I do not want her to think that I lost her because of the product. It's really a learning experience, I felt like I got a tight slap right in the face. What have I been doing all the while?
No doubt I read a lot of self-help books but "to know but not do it, is yet to know". And sometimes, I really don't like the way sy encourages me. It really doesn't sounds good to my ears but I really should be more open-minded about criticisms. Hmm.. I'm also not sure if I should call up the friend to ask her something about the plan. This experience will propel me to work harder, because I am so angry of myself being such a useless person. Think positive!
What did I do right?
I really used my heart to plan.
I need to take up a life plan myself.
16.1.08
21.7.07
A new chapter
I'm back!
I haven't really had to chance to post my thoughts and feelings all these while. So much has happened and this is going to be a short entry too.
Now that I'm using the old-school dial-up connection, I can't stay online for too long, because that would deter people for calling my house phone.
I wish I could apply for broadband connection but not in the near future.
That's all for now first.
Just dropping by to say "Hello"
I haven't really had to chance to post my thoughts and feelings all these while. So much has happened and this is going to be a short entry too.
Now that I'm using the old-school dial-up connection, I can't stay online for too long, because that would deter people for calling my house phone.
I wish I could apply for broadband connection but not in the near future.
That's all for now first.
Just dropping by to say "Hello"
14.5.07
guess who's back
I have shifted back home, for good. Sigh.
Special thanks to Wilson who gave me a lift on Saturday and Saudi who helped me shifted my stuff back home on Sunday.
The whole of last week was devoted to expedition, and I didn't have much time to settle the millions of unsettled stuff. Even till now, 75% of my brain is occupied with expedition stuff.
I took freaking long to pack my stuff. Spent lots of time thinking which are the ones that I should keep and which are the things that I should dump. There were a lot of flashback memories and it's really amazing how everything just seems so yesterday.
I woke up sobbing on Saturday morning, because I see myself crying when trying to send off some of the expedition members who will be coming back early. The sadness is so real and I think I will cry a lot when the trip is over. I hate goodbyes.
Polly was watching me pack all the while and we were chatting along fine, but it hit me hard when she said she's going out already.
Moving back has a whole lot of meaning.
Moving back means no freedom.
Moving back means lots of restrictions.
Moving back means you have to care, you can't "don't care" anymore.
Moving back means you are now padlocked inside the house. No more "TI TI" simon-voss lock.
Moving back means you have to socialize with your family members, even if you are not in the mood.
Moving back means you cannot do whatever you want anymore.
Basically, you get the idea uh.
And it's not going to help if you are starting on a new phase of your life.
Things get worse when your mother is utterly disappointed in your choice of career and she's totally not supportive at all.
Special thanks to Wilson who gave me a lift on Saturday and Saudi who helped me shifted my stuff back home on Sunday.
The whole of last week was devoted to expedition, and I didn't have much time to settle the millions of unsettled stuff. Even till now, 75% of my brain is occupied with expedition stuff.
I took freaking long to pack my stuff. Spent lots of time thinking which are the ones that I should keep and which are the things that I should dump. There were a lot of flashback memories and it's really amazing how everything just seems so yesterday.
I woke up sobbing on Saturday morning, because I see myself crying when trying to send off some of the expedition members who will be coming back early. The sadness is so real and I think I will cry a lot when the trip is over. I hate goodbyes.
Polly was watching me pack all the while and we were chatting along fine, but it hit me hard when she said she's going out already.
Moving back has a whole lot of meaning.
Moving back means no freedom.
Moving back means lots of restrictions.
Moving back means you have to care, you can't "don't care" anymore.
Moving back means you are now padlocked inside the house. No more "TI TI" simon-voss lock.
Moving back means you have to socialize with your family members, even if you are not in the mood.
Moving back means you cannot do whatever you want anymore.
Basically, you get the idea uh.
And it's not going to help if you are starting on a new phase of your life.
Things get worse when your mother is utterly disappointed in your choice of career and she's totally not supportive at all.
7.5.07
not finished
it's 520am and i haven't slept yet..
the tea is finally taking effect and even though i'm tired, i laid on my sleep wide-eyed..
still not done with my presentation slides but i've made huge progress since the last post.. all thanks to my lover polly wong.. she stayed with me till 330am.. zhen jiang yi qi..
i'm quite hungry now.. and i'm thinking of drinking more caffeine but i think my stomach can't take it.. there have been a lot of weird movements in my tummy..
pls bless me through the presentation.. i have no idea why i dread it so much..
the tea is finally taking effect and even though i'm tired, i laid on my sleep wide-eyed..
still not done with my presentation slides but i've made huge progress since the last post.. all thanks to my lover polly wong.. she stayed with me till 330am.. zhen jiang yi qi..
i'm quite hungry now.. and i'm thinking of drinking more caffeine but i think my stomach can't take it.. there have been a lot of weird movements in my tummy..
pls bless me through the presentation.. i have no idea why i dread it so much..
escapism
i'm trying to run away...
i wish i can fast forward the time..
i dread my fyp presentation...
i have no confidence at all and i am totally not prepared and i'm doing nothing about it
i suck big time..
sigh...
i've drank two cups of tea and i'm feeling sleepy already.. not good at all..
i'm damn scared to face my supervisor and examiner tomorrow..
aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i just want to get out of here, pls!
the whole hall has become very quiet in general except the d blkers who are trying very hard to enjoy their last moments in hall..
the guys played in their pool till wee hours on friday and they just had a block bbq..
everyone is creating memories that they can remember after leaving hall..
e3 wing is only left with me and polly..
i will cherish this week with polly..
now back to presentation slides
i wish i can fast forward the time..
i dread my fyp presentation...
i have no confidence at all and i am totally not prepared and i'm doing nothing about it
i suck big time..
sigh...
i've drank two cups of tea and i'm feeling sleepy already.. not good at all..
i'm damn scared to face my supervisor and examiner tomorrow..
aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i just want to get out of here, pls!
the whole hall has become very quiet in general except the d blkers who are trying very hard to enjoy their last moments in hall..
the guys played in their pool till wee hours on friday and they just had a block bbq..
everyone is creating memories that they can remember after leaving hall..
e3 wing is only left with me and polly..
i will cherish this week with polly..
now back to presentation slides
3.5.07
it's always hard to say goodbye
This is the collage that chen guobao did for us (me and polly). She had packed most of her stuff and shifted them back home.This morning when I wanted to tell her that something had struck me, I saw her tearing in front of the laptop. Initially, I thought she was sad because she is moving back home already. After which then I realized that she's upset for her sister. At that moment of time, I was still telling myself, if I were to comfort her and tell her that there's nothing to be sad about, I would be lying.
We ordered KFC delivery and while waiting for her dad to come, we helped her bring her stuff to the car porch. We ate lunch on the floor in my room, was just commenting on how shiok it was to eat KFC for the longest time. Then guobao started shifting the rest of her stuff back once she finished her lunch. I was still asking Polly, should we write her a card or something, but it was too late, she was going to leave soon. And just when she made her second last trip to the car porch, she gave us a handmade card each. I was really touched and then it struck me that soon we are going to say goodbye. Polly kept saying that she's an emotionless person who could not tear easily. It was a huge card by the way, and I really like the photos.
Thanks guobao! It has been a really fun and cosy semester with Polly and guobao! From a full strength of 9 people to an active strength of 3 people, I think we have also created a lot of memories that belongs to only the three of us and I really appreciate the effort each of us had put in.
We made effort to eat breakfast together.
We made effort to brush teeth together.
We made effort to come out and chat together.
We made effort to cheer for each other during IHG.
We made effort to encourage each other during exams.
We made effort to make a fool of ourselves and laughed heartily at one another.
That's probably why it's always hard to say goodbye.
2.5.07
非你莫屬
〈對白〉：你知道嗎？我很喜歡牽著你的手的感覺。發生什麽樣子我好希望再來一次。
懂得讓我微笑的人
再沒有誰比你有天分
輕易闖進我的心門
明天的美夢你完成
整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走
愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭
但那人是你所以不怕苦
懂得讓我流淚的人
給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕
你同時點亮了星辰
那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地設般產生奇跡
喔我心的縫隙
我想除了你
任誰也無法填補這空虛
懂得讓我微笑的人
再沒有誰比你有天分
輕易闖進我的心門
明天的美夢你完成
整個宇宙浩瀚無邊的盡頭
每顆渺小星球全都繞著你走
愛我非你莫屬
我只願守護由你給我的幸福
愛我非你莫屬
也許會笑著哭
但那人是你所以不怕苦
懂得讓我流淚的人
給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕
你同時點亮了星辰
那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地設般產生奇跡
喔我心的縫隙
我想除了你
任誰也無法填補這空虛
Here comes May..
On the first day of May, I woke up at 730am, even though the weather is DAMN nice to sleep in. Was sms-ing Ng Tze Chong about cancelling of the beach trip and go bowling instead. But he insisted on meeting first and eat Mac bf. Idiot! In the end, meeting time was postponed to 1030am.
Oh! The night before I went for a run! *3 claps! It's one of the few self-initiated runs and I ran alone! Haha! Woo.. It's been quite some time since I last ran. I must say I felt damn light after running, maybe because of the poor blood circulation. Hah! Aiyoh.. but my knee ached a lot. These few days have been very conscious about my knee. I think sometimes when I was walking I did not fully straightened it, that's why it seems that I'm limping.
Alright, back to the beachy thing.
Oh yah! Before that, while trying to kill time before setting off from hall. I played the all-time -favorite Ben & Jerry's game. Woohoo! I actually got into the highscore chart with 4700 points! (Check http://www.benjerry.com.sg/fun_stuff/games/pastyoureyes/highscores.cfm). Sounds damn childish but hey.. it ain't no easy k! Now that I've conquered B&J, I need to source for a new challenge. Haha!
And so, we met at 1045am and went to the food market for brunch. In retrospect, I ate ALOT yesterday. There goes my run..
By the time we reached the beach, it was already 11plus. There were a lot of people and a lot of dogs. All kinds. The weather wasn't really ideal for me. Hee. It was cloudy for the whole early afternoon and it kind of made me sleepy and lethargic. We played a lot of volleyball and played with two groups of people. There's only one court available hence everyone was vying for the same court, but the six of us refused to get out.
Finally when we stopped playing, it was already 2plus? It started to drizzle. The kind of rain that will last for a while and yet does not hinder you from playing. I dozed off for a while in the shelter while the rest went to the pool. Didn't feel like getting wet when there is no sun.
Before that, during rest time, JT asked Zhiye why his chest is concaved in. Then that stupid Zhiye replied that he was the national hero during WWII and helped Singapore blocked the atomic bomb. WTF? It's damn hilarious lah! I couldn't stop laughing for like 10 mins.
The sun finally showed itself at 3plus. I quickly slapped some sunblock and went for a swim in the water. But sentosa's beach is very disappointing.. So much litter! When we wanted to play volleyball again, there isn't any available court. I suggested that we could buy a set of beach vball equipment for Zhicong for his bday, so that next time he will have to bring the equipment out and the rest of us will benefit. We left at 5plus, wanted to have dinner at Vivo initially, but the parking is a nightmare. So in the end, we went to some chicken rice stall strongly recommended by Zhicong at Prinsep street. It turned out to be some very old school HK restaurant. The setting is almost like the one you will see on Zhen Qing and we were there to pull the mean customer age to 40yrs old. The food wasn't that fantastic but the service is damn efficient. Luckily, we were there slightly earlier than the dinner crowd.
After dinner, we went to walk around Bugis for a while before they decided to go Minds Cafe at Clark Quay. I didn't join them because I had agreed to meet Rohting at Vivo. So I took the bus and reached Vivo at 730pm. I kept walking and walking aimlessly while waiting for RT. In the end, I walked for an hour plus before I got to see her. We went Secret Recipe for DINNER and DESSERT. It's amazing how I can eat. Anyway, I told her that I'm joining Suyi in her agency. She was shocked at first, and talked a lot about choosing the right manager. Hmm.. after hearing what she said, I wasn't inspired or anything. As in, it's just different goals that we are looking for and they are no where close to one another.
Anyway, the rest of May will be damn exciting and bustling with activities. So stay tuned.
Oh! The night before I went for a run! *3 claps! It's one of the few self-initiated runs and I ran alone! Haha! Woo.. It's been quite some time since I last ran. I must say I felt damn light after running, maybe because of the poor blood circulation. Hah! Aiyoh.. but my knee ached a lot. These few days have been very conscious about my knee. I think sometimes when I was walking I did not fully straightened it, that's why it seems that I'm limping.
Alright, back to the beachy thing.
Oh yah! Before that, while trying to kill time before setting off from hall. I played the all-time -favorite Ben & Jerry's game. Woohoo! I actually got into the highscore chart with 4700 points! (Check http://www.benjerry.com.sg/fun_stuff/games/pastyoureyes/highscores.cfm). Sounds damn childish but hey.. it ain't no easy k! Now that I've conquered B&J, I need to source for a new challenge. Haha!
And so, we met at 1045am and went to the food market for brunch. In retrospect, I ate ALOT yesterday. There goes my run..
By the time we reached the beach, it was already 11plus. There were a lot of people and a lot of dogs. All kinds. The weather wasn't really ideal for me. Hee. It was cloudy for the whole early afternoon and it kind of made me sleepy and lethargic. We played a lot of volleyball and played with two groups of people. There's only one court available hence everyone was vying for the same court, but the six of us refused to get out.
Finally when we stopped playing, it was already 2plus? It started to drizzle. The kind of rain that will last for a while and yet does not hinder you from playing. I dozed off for a while in the shelter while the rest went to the pool. Didn't feel like getting wet when there is no sun.
Before that, during rest time, JT asked Zhiye why his chest is concaved in. Then that stupid Zhiye replied that he was the national hero during WWII and helped Singapore blocked the atomic bomb. WTF? It's damn hilarious lah! I couldn't stop laughing for like 10 mins.
The sun finally showed itself at 3plus. I quickly slapped some sunblock and went for a swim in the water. But sentosa's beach is very disappointing.. So much litter! When we wanted to play volleyball again, there isn't any available court. I suggested that we could buy a set of beach vball equipment for Zhicong for his bday, so that next time he will have to bring the equipment out and the rest of us will benefit. We left at 5plus, wanted to have dinner at Vivo initially, but the parking is a nightmare. So in the end, we went to some chicken rice stall strongly recommended by Zhicong at Prinsep street. It turned out to be some very old school HK restaurant. The setting is almost like the one you will see on Zhen Qing and we were there to pull the mean customer age to 40yrs old. The food wasn't that fantastic but the service is damn efficient. Luckily, we were there slightly earlier than the dinner crowd.
After dinner, we went to walk around Bugis for a while before they decided to go Minds Cafe at Clark Quay. I didn't join them because I had agreed to meet Rohting at Vivo. So I took the bus and reached Vivo at 730pm. I kept walking and walking aimlessly while waiting for RT. In the end, I walked for an hour plus before I got to see her. We went Secret Recipe for DINNER and DESSERT. It's amazing how I can eat. Anyway, I told her that I'm joining Suyi in her agency. She was shocked at first, and talked a lot about choosing the right manager. Hmm.. after hearing what she said, I wasn't inspired or anything. As in, it's just different goals that we are looking for and they are no where close to one another.
Anyway, the rest of May will be damn exciting and bustling with activities. So stay tuned.
27.4.07
i only love cleaning E320
Now that I'm QUITE free, I shall blog about my last moments in hall. Hee
I'm not sure if I will be able to keep this blog after I shift back home because there's no longer free and fast internet connection.
I probably need to retract what I've said in my previous post. Haha!
After a brain-draining meeting with Master in the evening, my passion just died. I wonder if ending exams early is a blessing or a suffering. There are tons of things I need to do to compile a SOP for expedition. TMD! The guys just got away because they are still having exams. Can tell that Master favors the guys more, merely because he thinks guys who went through army are MEN with same frequency as him. *Rolls eyes.
I did a spring cleaning for E320. Haha! I think it's the final time that I'm cleaning it. Will be moving out in three weeks' time. Damn fast. I've been staying in the same room for three years and I really like it very much. I like the view. I like the wind. I like my neighbors. I like every corner. And I've maintained it very well. Serious! Have been cleaning it weekly throughout my stay. I can't explain why the conscientious effort in cleaning up the room when I'm a rather untidy and very lazy person. Seriously, I seldom do housework at home but I really enjoy the weekly cleaning ups. And I take pride in them. There's always a great sense of happiness after the room is cleaned up.
Each time I would start from the fan. Then the windows. Desk. Bed. Sweep. Mop. Shift the bed. Sweep. Mop. Shift back the bed. Flip the chair. Clean its wheels. Clean the other chair. Then sweep. Mop. Mirror. Sweep. Mop.
E320 is 11.6 x 8.5 squares big.
I envy the next owner.
I'm not sure if I will be able to keep this blog after I shift back home because there's no longer free and fast internet connection.
I probably need to retract what I've said in my previous post. Haha!
After a brain-draining meeting with Master in the evening, my passion just died. I wonder if ending exams early is a blessing or a suffering. There are tons of things I need to do to compile a SOP for expedition. TMD! The guys just got away because they are still having exams. Can tell that Master favors the guys more, merely because he thinks guys who went through army are MEN with same frequency as him. *Rolls eyes.
I did a spring cleaning for E320. Haha! I think it's the final time that I'm cleaning it. Will be moving out in three weeks' time. Damn fast. I've been staying in the same room for three years and I really like it very much. I like the view. I like the wind. I like my neighbors. I like every corner. And I've maintained it very well. Serious! Have been cleaning it weekly throughout my stay. I can't explain why the conscientious effort in cleaning up the room when I'm a rather untidy and very lazy person. Seriously, I seldom do housework at home but I really enjoy the weekly cleaning ups. And I take pride in them. There's always a great sense of happiness after the room is cleaned up.
Each time I would start from the fan. Then the windows. Desk. Bed. Sweep. Mop. Shift the bed. Sweep. Mop. Shift back the bed. Flip the chair. Clean its wheels. Clean the other chair. Then sweep. Mop. Mirror. Sweep. Mop.
E320 is 11.6 x 8.5 squares big.
I envy the next owner.
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