Ramblings

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Sometimes I'm just too lazy to update. But I managed to start writing a diary also. So I sort of recorded a lot of the little encounters, thoughts and reflections I've been through.

Right now, I'm working at Speedmark. After I returned from Cambodia, I stayed at home for a week as a "house-daughter". Helped my mum do her data entry, did a bit of house work and tried to tuition my sis. As I was planning to start looking for a job the following week, my kind neighbour happened to ask my mum if any one of us (me and my bro) wants to work part-time doing filing for a week. So I took up the job. What I do is soooooooo boring that I could doze off halfway. Everyday I had to arm-wrestle with the hole puncher. But well, for the money. Luckily it's only for a week and now is already Thursday, just hang on a bit more. Anyway, I felt pretty out of place at the office. The office is rather big, this is the first time I saw the exact replica of what I've seen on TV. Everyone has their own cubicle, computer and phone. Everyone had their own space. But after the first two days, I told myself I won't want to work in an office like that. There's no motivation for me to work hard. Everything is so routine. Politics is everywhere. Gossip is all over. And with your own cubicle, there isn't much social interaction. I don't know. Maybe that is why I feel that way, it's because I don't know much about working in an office.

Somehow, this holiday has been a bustling one. Though I did not have a long-term part time job, I had a handful of activities in my schedule. Yesterday I went back AHS to play badminton with my seniors. I loved playing badminton leisurely. I had a great time playing and laughing. All the while I was laughing heartily until my jaws ached. I'm looking forward to the next session. I'm gong back hall this Saturday for room bidding then I have a BBQ session in the evening. Sunday I have tuition and coaching then meet up with my expedition leaders to do accounts. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I have to attend a first aid course with Zhiye. It's part of the NCAP criteria. Hopefully, I got into the theory class in August then I can be qualified coach. Rohting asked me to help out in her sis' ice cream cafe. Yeah! See? Another job coming in my way. I have so much things to do. And all these while I'm really enjoying what I've been doing.

This afternoon I had lunch with my ex-collegues from BIrkart. It was great seeing everyone again and knowing that everything else had not changed much since I last left except for their hairstyles. I must say that I have an affinity with Changi Cargo complex. Hah. Never thought I would go back there to work again when I left last year.

On my way back home, on the bus ride, I think I saw my eyecandy'd friend. My heart stopped a beat, hoping to see my eyecandy. Too bad, he wasn't there. All these while, I'm thinking about him. But I don't know what is really so good about him that I'm addicted to when I don't even know him at all. Probably, he's just a puppet on my mind and I'm just making use of this puppet to create more fairytale-like fantasies out of it. So sick of myself being so naive and desperate. Always longing to bump into him. But seriously, what are the chances that he also like me? Someone is still visiting my friendster page everyday. Who?! WHO??! Sigh, I guess I can never find out...

I'm Back

Finally, I'm back after two weeks. Really enjoyed the trip very much. In fact, I was reluctant to leave the village. Those two weeks were the most carefree life I've ever led. No handphones. No Internet. No buildings. Kids. Friendly villages. Foreign langauge. Animals. Simple life. Everyday I wake up at 5am in the morning and the village was already bustling with activities. Their 8am seems like 11am in Singapore. They had nothing over there but they were all happy people. Everything is an eye-opener to me. Some kids are ten years old but they look like 5 five years old to me, this is because they are malnourished. Most of the wear the same set of clothes for three or more days and they only have three or four sets of clothes in their closet. They get dirtied easily because of the dusty environment. They do not have proper sanitation and clean water. But all of them have no complains.

We must have looked like clowns to them and their source of amusement during our stay there. As spoilt city-brats, we have built a toilet there for our use. The toilet was small and it's manual flush system, meaning we need to bail water to flush our waste. No throwing of toilet paper into the shithole because it will clog the pipe. So we had to throw toilet paper into a plastic bag. We taught the kids how to play frisbee. They were amazed by our spectacles. I tried to teach them English. In return, they taught me Khmer. I loved the scenery. Plains. Sunrise. Sunset. Starry nights.

I played with the kids everyday. I dared said I'm the one who interacted most with the kids. I loved their innocence. Their sincerity. Their curiosity. Their playfulness. They are easily contented with simple things. Each new trick they learnt from us, they are eager to show other kids and they are very patient to learn. They play with simple things like straws and rubber bands. We showed them chaptay, frisbee and captain's ball. Everyday, I get to laugh heartily with the kids.

After leaving the village, I was very upset. Cried for the longest time. When I finally stopped for lunch, my tears came back after lunch. I wasn't enjoying myself in Siem Reap. I miss them badly. It's amazing how close and attached we have become. Everything complicates after I stepped out of the village. Hope I can go back again to see the kids. I don't want to make any promise now because I'm really unsure of what I can do or will do. This entry is rather incoherent. Anyway, I will be a young adult tomorrow. Woohoo~